Ujian dan Dugaan...

People say that 'masa bertunang nie la banyak dugaan'..... I still have a long engagement to go thru but actually for me, before I knew my fiance I already went thru all the shit and so called dugaan in my 25 years of life... I know I can go thru this engagement with all the dugaan for I know I have went thru worst in my past...

Omputeh's saying 'if it doesn't kill you, it only makes you stronger' is a saying that I can so relate to. Yes, all the shit I went thru only made me stronger and the women I am today. I know everything happens for a reason. Maybe the shit I went thru is preparing me for my future rumahtangga. Or maybe it was just a test given by Him in order to see if I can handle the tests He gave me. Or maybe He wanted me to suffer big time first in order to give me unconditional happiness in the end... I can say I am happy now. Very happy... But I got a whole life ahead of me and I know that the tests just doesn't stop here... Even if I die tomorrow, I still have to answer to the angels dalam kubur and we still have to go thru The Day of Judgment...

So to conclude whatever I was babbling about is that I went thru a lot; and I say A LOT, before I met Azlan aka my fiance. So I guess all the talk on 'masa bertunang nie banyak dugaan' is one thing I can handle, InsyaAllah... But personally I think that Allah memang sentiasa memberi ujian kepada hambaNya in order for us to remember Him. It is because He loves us. That is the reason why he gives us all these tests and stuff. The harder it is, the more He loves us... So nanti lepas kawen pun mesti ada ujian dan dugaan jugak kan? Meaning, for me, going thru all this dugaan and ujian is just another phase of life...