Skin Care Review!

Hello peeps!

My first review for skin care! I promised to do this like almost 3 months ago! But of course, when you wanna try out a new thing, it takes time right?

So, now I'm using Artistry. This is an expensive product! I never thought it would work for me coz you name it, I have tried ProActiv, Sendayu Tinggi, Neutrogena, Olay, Natasya, and so much more and non worked for me.

I use the right hand set ;-)

But before this, I used St. Ives Blemish and Blackhead Control Face Wash. It was a good product. Worked for me but still did not fully clear up my face. But I was satisfied coz it was the best out of the rest that I've used. Well, lucky me, after using it for less then 1 year, it was discontinued! I can't find it anywhere in Malaysia right now. But thanks to that, now I'm using Artistry which gives me better results. But still, I am a St. Ives fan and now using it's Apricot Scrub which I use a few times a week. I don't really keep track. When I feel like using it, I use it.

I was also told by a pharmacist to try out T3! I did and it broke me out! That time I already bought Artistry and I told the pharmacist. She told me to use both, not at once but one in the day time and the other at night, taknak membaziaq la katakan. But I didn't listen so I went on just using T3. Penuh jerawat! Lepaih tu, teruih pakai Artistry pagi, T3 malam, St Ives Apricot Scrub whenever I feel like to and voila! I have almost perfect looking skin! ALMOST OK! I never had clearer looking skin like this in ages! Zits came to me when I was 19 and now I'm 26! Just tinggal cmne nk hilangkan scars and nak carik cara nak haluihkan muka kulit lak.

I want to give a before and after picture tapi I don't have much pics of my own self during 'those' days. Sangat tak suka tengok muka kat cermin and sangat tak suka tangkap gambaq! If I find them, I'll post them up. Tapi BUROK kot! Yuck! Still I hate doing the above but I don't look as hideous as before LOL...

So there you go, a review on skincare ^_^

Newest Update...

Last post, December 7th....
Today, December 22nd....

Last years post, 48...
This years post, to date, 43, this post, 44...
I could write more. It's just that I don't have the time. I'm writing this while I'm doing my transcribing...

Another 2 weeks, Finals! Yeay! I only have 2 papers for this semesters finals. One on the 3rd of January and the second maybe on the 5th of January. Assignments still have a few more to do. Political Economy, group still needs amendments, individual not even started yet! Damn... Research, just have to finish my qualitative justifications, do 3 quizzes, and read for my final exam... Seminar in Media Trends and Criticism, no assignments given yet but it is coming and finals open note a.k.a open book final exam so I'm sorta relived... And once done, I'm free!!!! Singapore! Here I come!!! ^_^

My target is to do more posts then last year but I dunno if I can do it with just another week and so much to do. Maybe I can. Maybe just a few short entries can do the trick heeehee... And yes, I'm a boring blogger coz I don't have pics in my blog. I'm such a lazy bum, I know that. Plus, I hate taking pictures. I hate taking them, I also hate taking my own picture... My days are also so boring. Work, classes, assignments, work, classes, assignments over and over and over again... I just look forward for the weekends where sometimes I can see my parents and also can go deting2...

But about my wedding update, confirmed I'll be married in a masjid, not at home. Maybe masjid at UPSI and confirmed and already booked, Proton City Hall for my wedding reception. Confirmed also I'm gonna wear songket merah for sanding and I insist on having another more modern salinan to puaskan hati sendiri untuk gambar2 or anything lah asalkan something else besides songket. Wedding door gifts lak just telur semata2. Kalau boleh nak minimize as much as possible the usage of my parents money. I'm not taking out one cent! Hey, yes I work but I only get 1.3k a month and living in Shah Alam where I pay my own rent, pay my own bills, my my own stuff, and what not lah. And every month i can save at least rm300 just so that I can afford a wedding photoG! Itu pun akan ambik masa 6 months to get the amount needed!

Yeah, yeah, people say I'm lucky coz my dad is sponsoring my wedding but I feel quite guilty. Yeah, yeah, people say why should I coz my dad mampu kot but still, I know it isn't easy for him to earn his pay every month. And then spend it all on me. I'm the one who should be giving my parents money due to my old age already. Yet, I haven't even done that much yet and I'm bound to get married. Tanggungjawab kat parents pun masih belum terbuat, nie susahkan diorg sponsor my wedding pulak. Ok, rambling pasal benda lain lak. Ok, sambung update kawen. Erm..... Barang hantaran my dad dah bincang with Kak Cik, they're doing my hantaran and Kak Cik will look for the stuff. Kad kawen, my dad will be doing it also, tak payah mahal2! Nanti orang buang jugak, conteng jugak. Kami2 nie je kot yang akan simpan. And orang lain maybe simpan for what I dunno LOL....

Erm, erm, erm, pelamin nanti my dad pun akan cari. Catering my dad dah cari. Semua lah my dad yang buat lah. All i have to do is cari barang hantaran to put on dulang bagai. Senang jugak kerja aku. Owh, yeah, baju nikah. Gotta find a tailor. Need to slim up! And I guess that's it. Makeup, baju, uncle yang sponsor. PhotoG je cari sendiri. Tu pong malas! Nak je buat doa selamat je, senang, jimat and no pening2... But takpe lah, first in the family to get married plus Mr. Fiance pun wants a wedding reception like this. He said it's a once in a lifetime chance. We'll if he says so... But overall, I am happy walaupun pening and hate thinking about benda2 renyah lagu nie!

Ok, I think I'm gonna go sleep. Sambung siapkan kerja transcribing esok lah. Got 21minutes left to do, can finish by tomorrow ;)

GoodNight Peeps!!!

OMG!

Can't you believe that it's been more than a month not writing! Ok, this post is dedicated to Lisa Farhana coz she asked me to write again. Ok, the thing is, it's not that I don't wanna write but I have NO TIME! Just imagine I'm typing and I have a book beside me which I'm reading. I have to do an online quiz, 2 chapters ye, 2 chapters due tomorrow! Every week I'll (and my classmates) receive quizzes to do online, 2 chapters every week! Not that, assignments that we have to prepare in one week to present the following week, EVERY WEEK! Can you imagine that?! And that is just one subject. Please, I'm seriously dying here. I just can't wait till this semester finishes. And I have a few more assignments due in 2 weeks! Those are different subjects which I haven't even touched yet! All because of this RESEARCH subject! This subject is really killing me! No, sorry, the lecturer is really killing me!

Erm, ok, I think that's enuf pouring my frustrations here. Sorry Lisa you have to read my bebelan yang ntah pape nie hehehe...

Btw, preparations for marriage? Non done yet! And i have 7 months left. NO TIME! Haih... Cepat la sem habis, can't take it anymore.....

Ok, done, studying time! Bye!

Huh?

OMG! Boleh tak dah lama tak update blog! I've been damn busy with assignments, quizzes, presentations and mid term exams! Besides that problem nak cari penyewa rumah. Haih.... So much to do, so much to think about in so little time... Apa nak update pun tak tau dah. Ha! Oke, nak cte pasal my birthday lah hehehe...

Ok, my birthay was last thursday tp sebab rabu cuti my family dari Tanjong Malim turun Shah Alam and bawak I makan Chili's! Jangan jeles! Hahaha... But yang tak berapa best tu, my family datang LAMBAT!!! and kacau my plans nak lepak with Encik Tunang yang paling dicintai... So takpe la,balik tu dah malam and esok tunang kje. Cakap dah dengan dia if tak sempat jumpa takpe coz he's working tomorrow... Tapi out of the blue, he called me once I arrived home and voila! He was downstairs! Pegi minum2 kat mamak kedai bawah nie je coz cannot lepak lama2... So another 45mins to 12am, my birthday, anta la tunang ke kereta balik la sebab esok kje, cannot balik lewat2. Tengok2 he bawak kuar bunga and hadiah! Yeay! Dia datang dah 1 surprise! The flowers and the present pun another surprise! How can not sayang dia kan?! He's is definitely the best! And that's not it, there's more!

On the day of my birthday, my lecturer wished me, so sweet of her! And my classmates Izyan asked me to ask Mariah to let me off work so I did coz Izyan said nak g makan... Surprise surprise again! Izyan bawak makan kat Fat Spoon also with Huda and they treated me! Then we went and bought some cupcakes at WonderMilk then went off karaoke-ing! Me likey! Hehehe... Then petang tu ada class la pulak and after class Mr. Fiance again gave me a surprise! Belikan Pizza Hut 7 Cheese yang memang aku nak sangat and also belikan aku cake! Siyesly how can not love him with all my heart? Hehehe... Owh, and thanks to Sihin too! She bought me a cake too for me birthday!!! Boleh tak rasa birthday tahun nie antara the best birthdays ever celebrated? Seriously rasa sangat3 dihargai...

And besides that..... Hmm.... Hmm.... Malas nak cte boleh? Takde benda nak cte pong... Kawen? Erm... Erm... Lagi 8 months to go, no need to do anything yet la kan? Serah bulat2 kat my dad and aunties boleh kan? Bosan la fikir pasal persiapan kawen nie. Nak nikah je boleh tak? And kenduri tu just buat doa selamat. Haih, tak abes2 mintak camnie kan? But that is what I want and baju cantek2 and tangkap2 gambar... Quotation for photoG's pun still too early la kot. In 4-6 months baru la mintak quotation kan? Besides photoG and pelamin, I think takde benda nak fikir dah kot? Kan? Haih...

And NAK KURUS!!!!!! Camne nak kurus nie?!!!! Haiya...

OK, malas dah nak update. Got more good things to do as in SLEEP! Gnite blog...

After 1 month +

It's 2.06am. I should be studying n doing my assignments but seriously I need a rest after 4 days of hard work doing my proposal. But what really makes me stressed out is that I have to do another proposal to present on Tuesday next week. I'm exhausted! 2 more quizzes to do and another 2 subjects of assignments still not yet touched! Seriously taking masters ain't that easy. I thought it would be as easy as doing my degree but nope, I'm damn wrong.

It has been 1 month plus not updating my blog and bila update, aku membebel. Yes, I've been very busy. Sometimes until I have no time for myself. Last semester wasn't as exhausting as this semester and I thought last sem was hectic. OK, membebel lagi. I'll stop and continue with whats going on in my life right now besides assignments, quizzes and also work....

Hmmm........

OK, I'll start off with MY FIANCE GOT A JOB NEAR ME! YEAY! Now we're much closer and one thing I noticed that when we're closer, the more I realize that Mr. Fiance and I are very different hahaha... Can say that we have different ideologies about stuff which sometimes makes me and him, not fight but debate about those stuff tapi takde la sampai gadoh hehehe... But it's kinda fun and annoying in a way hahahaha... But still I love him till death ^_^

Review on skin care, I'll pass coz I'm in such stress right now. Stress equals to Pimples! Damn...

Erm, marriage? Not much has been done yet. I still have like about less then 9 months to prepare. So I guess I'll just chillax and focus on my studies, my looks then my marriage preparation. Boleh? Besides, I don't really have any say on the preps. So WTH. To me, yang penting is NIKAH! After nikah, just do kenduri kecik2, macam doa selamat ke pun dah cukup. Enough to tell orang sekeliling that I'm married and tak timbul fitnah. Islamic style. Lebih afdhal... Oh! Tapi as a girl, I still wanna look pretty and take pics! Tu je hehehe...

And finally, I'm gonna do another post about rooms to rent. I mean, the house I live in has two rooms to let. But I think I'll do another post about it. Bye!!!

300 DAYS!

Oh blog, tadi saja gatai2 p bukak countdown clock or timer nak kira berapa hari lagi nak kawen kan, it's exactly 300 days left till my wedding day! Ok, tu je nak bagitau.

Bai!

Idea's For Blogging + Bebelan!

Boleh tak dah dekat sebulan tak upate blog? Last update tengah bulan lepas and now nak masuk tengah bulan ini. Well, first of all, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin! Raya tak abes lagi kan? Hehehe...

Actually macam banyak nak tulis dalam post kali nie tapi tak tau mana nak mula. Ok la, mula about school lah. Macam budak skolah lak. Ok, classes start this Monday. My classes are on Monday, Tuesday an Thursday. Perlu ke Thursday? Kenapa tak Wednesday? Kalau tak, aku boleh senang hati balik rumah hari Khamis tengah hari tu. Besides classes, I still have not yet received my offer letter untuk kje SKS (Skim Khidmat Siswazah), my part time job at UiTM yang menjadi kuli lecturer untuk mencari sesuap nasi dan jugak untuk simpan duit untuk kawen walaupun gaji tak banyak. Kalau bulan nie tak kje, bulan 10 memang tak berduit la aku. Maka harus la berjimat cermat walaupun aku tau my parents komfem lah akan bagi duit. Tapi segan. Yes, my dad can afford tapi tetap malu coz I'm old, almost 26 so patut aku bagi duit kat depa, bukan depa bagi duit kat aku. Ok, cukup, rambling off lak. Tapi tu lah, whats going on with my study and work life.

Next is friends! Ok, I read Rina Hamid's blog the other day and dia ada buat post pasal skin care, here's her link Love Your Skin. I've read lotsa blogs about this and maybe I'll do a review myself about skin care. You guys must say I'm so not the person to give reviews but believe me, I've started to have acne since Form 6 and still searching for the right product! 18 to 26, 7 years of suffering! But syukur alhamdulillah my skin now ain't as bad as it was 5, 6 years ago. I've used Olay to Pro Active to Natasha to Neutrogena to Sendayu Tinggi to Clinelle to St. Ives and so much more, you name it. Well, among all, St. Ives worked best for me and I had the best skin ever using St. Ives but maybe sebab kulit aku sensitip kot, aku malas nak tanggai makeup bagai, takat masuk toilet tenyeh muka dengan pencuci, tu yang kulit nak jugak naik jerawat. But the best that I've used is St. Ives. But disebabkan pencuci muka habes and carik kat Watson Tanjong Malim dah habes and kebetulan mntk Encik Tunang belikan set pencuci muka Artistry sebab dapat discount and dia hantar to me after that, I'm now trying that. Belum sebulan pakai tapi the best thing I noticed is that muka tak kuat minyak banding dulu so I hope that's a good sign. Kalau tak, memang tukar balik St. Ives je la.

Another thing I wanna share here is that I'm improving myself. Yes, dulu dok pikir improve diri and yes, I'm still working on that walaupun macam only 30% je yang berjaya. Now I'm moving on to improving my looks and how I dress! The reason behind it? Yes, numero uno is because I wanna look all fancy and dandy in front of my fiance. Second reason is that my bakal birases are HAWT! As in freaking HAWT! So aku nie yang semulajadi selekeh, berpakaian seperti budak-budak early 20's (bak kata adik aku la) and also selekeh (also bak kata adik aku) rasa sangat la....erm...whats the word?.... UGLY! And tambah pulak I'm gaining weight! FUGLY! So my aim now is to lose weight, shop for new stylish clothes and learn how to apply makeup! Which I suck in all three. But I'm trying and my fiance is supporting me so lagi la aku semangat kan hehehe...

Last but not least is about me love life and me wedding. Updates on love life? Haven't met for almost 2 months! Longest time ever! And wedding preparations? Perlu ke fikir? Malas boleh? Plus its still 9++ months away. I have plenty of time. Kan? Thinking about wedding preparations are exhausting. Ikut hati nak nikah je and tak mau sanding2 bagai. Tapi memang komfem la kena ada pasai aku anak 1st nk menikah. Aku jugak anak sedara 1st nak menikah comei2 lagu nie. Haish, payah la no kalau lagu nie huhuhu...

Oh and nanti akan ada pre-wed photoshoot with Rina Hamid and maybe Shamir is tagging along hujung bulan nie. Yang tu pun satu hal. Tema la, baju la, makeup la. Pffftttt!

Oh and I just operated my tooth. Damn it hurts like hell! After the medication subsided la hahahahaha... Masa dia tonyoh, gerudi and tarik gigi aku tak sakit. Dah la masa dia tengah tonyok, gerudi and tarik gigi aku hidung aku gatai. Nak garu takleh, doktor was like in my face kan. Gatal tu hilang bila rasa bila doktor tarik gigi aku and aku nampak gigi aku diangkat and diletak mana pun tak tau.Yang paling best, aku lapaq! Pagi sebelum p hospital slim river aku mkn setengah roti coklat gardenia. Lambat dah for the appointment kan. Lepas tu, pukul 9 baru aku mkn. Makan bubur. Sebelum tu try makan roti. Memula ingt ok la kan, lepas tu, AMBEK! Sakit gila, tak berani nak makan dah. Aku pulak pelahap, mana cukup bubur! Kul 12+ ngadu kat mak lapar hehehe... Mak bagi idea cun, suh cicah roti dengan ayaq melo. Baru la perut kenyang. Roti pun makan sekeping je. Lambat nak abes. Last penat makan sebab lambat nak abes. But a good way for me to diet kan? Hehehe...

Banyak la pulak membebel. Almost a month la katakan tak menulis. And sepatutnya aku buat kje. Kje menjadi kuli lecturer. Cuti-cuti pun bawak balik kje walaupun bulan 9 nie maybe tak dapat offer letter. Last job kne buat, Power Point ONE WHOLE DAMN BOOK! Syabas lecturer aku menggunakan khidmat aku. Tapi takpe lah, aku memang la 'rajin' kan so pape je la. Buat je la. Nak siap hari Ahad latest. Lepas tu balik Shah Alam tak payah fikir dah kje and leh dating dengan Encik Tunang and also bakal biras! Yeay! Lepas tu Encik Tunang akan balik Penang. Dem....

Rindu......................

Walaupun its only been 16 days, saya sangat rindu tunang saya (-_-)

Gambar Encik Tunang bersama abg, adik dan kakak2 iparnya ♥

Our Song...

Banyak pulak idea aku hari nie nak berblog kan. Just jotting things down so I can take a look at it down the line. Hari nie, nak bagitau that me and Encik Tunang found 'Our Song' ^_^

This song has always been one of my favorites! The song is sung by LoneStar and the song title is Amazed. Setiap kali dengar lagu nie, my heart always skip a beat. Lagi2 bila dah lama tak dengar and tetiba bila pasang light&easy or red fm, ada pulak lagu tu kan. Huish, menangkap kalbu hahahahaha...

I posted that song on my fiance's FB wall. I posted the alternative version but I like the original ballad ala country version sebab tak jumpa the original version of the song. Tetiba boleh pulak my tunang nie suka hihihi... He said he knew this song just never really listened to it. Tapi bila fiancee dia post kat dia, lagi2 the alternative version (Encik Tunang suka lagu rock like Bullet for My Valentine and jerit2 like Metallica) terus dia suka! And terus jadi 'Our Song' ^____^

OK, nak letak jugak kat sini... Enjoy! ^_~

All Is A OK ^_^

Hello Blog!!!

OK, saya sangat hepi. Nak tau tak kenapa? Sebab saya dan kawan saya dah berbaik! Sebelum tak gado pun, just masing2 tetiba lain antara satu sama lain sebab perselisihan faham kerana mulut orang. Well, takpe lah. Tak kesah lah pasal itu orang. Yang penting me n her dah OK! Kami baik hari Ahad lepas lepas sahur. Details? Biar lah saya dan dia sahaja yang tahu. And again, yang penting, kami OK! Both of us sangat la lega bila this thing dah settle. I thought I alone was feeling uneasy, dia pun sama rupanya. Syukur sangat3 that things are OK between us now ^_^

Makcik Hang Nur Edayu! Ko tau tak time kita baik2 tu, aku ada ternangis? Malu nak kasi tau ko sebenarnya hahahaha... Tapi yang pasti aku memang SAYANG sangat kat ko k! You were always there for me when I needed somebody. Pape je aku carik ko. Walaupun sekarang aku dok jauh di Shah Alam dan Tanjong Malim, aku sanggup selalu turun Penang untuk jumpa korang. Especially you and Rina Hamid! Makcik Lizi Ahmad lak payah sungguh nak jumpak... Cuma sekarang nie je susah sikit nak jumpa korang sebab bila balik Penang, ada agenda dengan Encik Tunang tapi cmne pun I will find a time to spend with you guys ~_^

But honestly, I'm so relieved :)

Sembang Tiada Tujuan...

Erm... Nak sembang apa eh malam hari nie? Pasal kawen? Lambat lagi nak kawen so perlu ke cakap pasal kawen? Ada lebih kurang 10 bulan lagi utk kawen. So still early kan nak prepare pape kan? Coz dalam perbincangan, outfit sanding nanti my uncle sponsor, just tunggu time to go je. Door gift, my dad nak bagi telur, yassin and gula2 untuk budak2 kot. Sanding buat kat Dewan Proton City. Nikah buat kat rumah. Nikah malam tu makcik2 masak. Dewan lak insyaAllah Karim Catering. Tanjong Malim memang orang tu je pun yang ada and sedap. Just need to find pelamin. Apa lagi yang perlu kan? Kad? Got a place nanti nak survey but awal gila lagi kot. Baju nikah dah ada kain, just tinggal nak jahit which is also still too early nak anta kan? Nanti tergemok sape susah? Aku jugak (-_-')... Procedure2 kawen pun still too early nak sediakan... Belah lelaki pun all I have to be prepared for pun is untuk baju je la kan? Yang lain xperlu nak sibok2. Kenduri belah laki, belah laki la kan prepare... Hantaran? My stuff just tinggal kasut and handbag je kot. Malas la fikir pasal barang hantaran. Kurang berminat. Nanti2 la I'll look into it. But still, too early jugak kan? Tema? Abah dah tentukan. Classic and songket MERAH! Dem! But pasrah aje lah coz abah tersayang yang sponsor my whole wedding. Hmmm... Kalau ada lagi, sila beri tunjuk ajar ye ^_^

Besides that, saya sayang tunang saya. OK, aku tau gedik but I do! It's an achievement for me that my relationship with tunang has lasted for 8 months! After my 1st ex, non of my relationships or scandals lasted more then 8 months. Ye, aku ngaku aku tak tahan dengan prangai diaorang. But my tunang is the best! Bukan senang aku boleh tahan dengan prangai merepek2 orang nie. Lagi2 kalau jeles tak bertempat! And other stupid attitudes yang amat aku tak boleh tolerate. Tapi dengan Encik Tunang, semua prangai dia comel kot! Dia sorang je kot yang boleh bagi aku gelak sorang2 bila teringat balik dia buat itu and ini hehehe... Maybe sebab jodoh kot... I dunno... But yes, I love my fiance so much! :)

OK, dah lewat and esok kje! Bai!

Happy Puasa!

Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan! Here I would like to menyusun jari jari comelku ini memohon maaf kepada sume rakan rakan yang mengenali diri ini... If ada salah silap or terkasar bahasa or pape je la, maaf ye...

And Happy Puasa to Encik Tunang! This is our last puasa as orang bujang ye B... Lets enjoy our single life while we can! Less then 1 year to go! ^_~


p/s: and yeah, I guess memang nak kurangkan blogging after I get married... maybe even terus stop...

Soklan Pada Mereka yang Sudah Berkawen...

How's life after marriage?

Is it like a box of chocolate?

Is it as easy as A B C?

Is it hard?

Is it fun?

Is it stressful?

Is it wonderful?

Is it everything I mentioned above and more?

Teringin nak tau to prepare myself for the future :)

Kawan....

I know this happened quite some time ago and I did not write about it but still sangat terasa. OK, takde kaitan dengan Encik Tunang yang sangat saya sayang tapi tentang kawan. I seriously won't do anything to hurt my friends and if I did, memang secara tidak sengaja. Before I got engaged, they were the most important people in my life besides my family. Still, they are the most important people in my life but bila dah tunang, some things change but that doesn't change the fact that I love them with all my heart.

Talking about terasa, I donno if I should write it. I told Encik Tunang I'm over it but I'm not exactly over it. Actually I dunno how this thing happened. All I know all of a sudden something has changed between me and her. I think it's about a guy. I don't wanna jump to conclusions but seriously I'm engaged and surely won't try to woo another guy. Being friends, yes but more then that, it's jut not me. OK, yes, I texted the guy she liked but when he texted me about a business me and my fiance are doing. Kena la balas kan? But then biasa la, kawan jadi melalut la. Suh cari awek la bagai kan and me kononnya nak be a good friend mentioned my friends name nie. Basically tu je la and he also texted a few times again but because Encik Tunang knew about this and he didn't like it, I stopped. But the day I stopped, was the same day I got an uneasy feeling about my friend. I thought it was not important to tell her coz the way I texted this guy pun bukan nak ngorat kan. I actually can say she is my best friend. I dunno what she thinks of me but I can say that she is one of my bestest friends coz she's been there for me thru think and thin and I tell her almost everything.

Nak cite semua apa yang jadi memang panjang la but basically this happened and boleh la rasa jurang tu. When I asked her about her FB status, she did not say 'No' or 'Bukan ko lah' but she said it was another person but not denying that it was me. Paham tak? Hahahaha... Ayat cam haram kan? I mean I know her too well. If it wasn't me, she'd terus jawab 'Bukan ko lah' or 'Mengarut la hang nie' or stuff like that. And the best part which made me feel it was definitely me was when I told her that I forwarded the guys texts to my Encik Tunang and she text me back saying 'alang2 tu anta la kt aku skali'............................ I don't know what went wrong. Seriously. I have no idea. Should I call or ask her face to face about this or just let it be? Coz I know my niat was nothing but just being friends. How could something like this happen? Or is it just me dok terasa? But I seriously have a strong feeling the person she was talking about in her FB status was me. Orang cakap kalau takde angin, masakan pokok bergoyang kan? Yes, maybe it was my fault layan text mamat tersebut. Yes, that I am guilty TAPI the contents of the messages were strictly just friends messages and I also stated everytime he text me that I am someone's fiance and I love my fiance so much. Seriously I don't know what happened....

OK, dah2 la tu buat luahan perasaan kat blog. I don't get bothered with stuff easily but this thing has been bothering me since it happened. Seriously I love my friends and I would never ever hurt them dengan sengaja. But yes, aku agak terkilan. Terkilan sebab she should know me better.... Tapi pape pun, if tuan badan baca blog aku nie.... Seriously I'm so sorry for whatever thing that I did yang mungkin aku tak perasan yang melukakan ko. Takde niat di hati aku untuk merampas atau mengorat atau mengutuk atau mengata atau menggatal dengan mamat tu..... Sebab nie jugak dan sebab Azlan tak suka, aku memang dah tak balas message mamat tu... Kalau nak tau cite sebenar, you can come and ask me. I can explain every single text that i sent to him. Aku taknak just because of this, our 6 years friendship goes down the drain. You know how much you mean to me kan?

OK lah, I'm done.... Sila jangan rasa saya seperti lesbo pulak ye. Ye, saya sayang sume kawan saya. Saya sayang mereka sampai saya mati. Mereka la penyinar hidup saya suatu ketika dahulu dan saya tidak akan pernah melupakan mereka... *ok,lebih dituju kepada kawan2 arau*

Can I Have This Dance?

OK, you guys can say whatever you guys want but I love this High School Musical 3 song! The song is nice and the lyric is so sweet! Tujuan post ini? To tujukan lagu ini kepada Encik Tunang tersayang la hehehe...

Kepada Mohd Kamarul Azlan bin Ainuddin, let's keep dancing throughout our relationship tak kira susah dan senang. I'll always be by your side no matter what happens. And never forget that I love you so much!

Can I Have This Dance

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

p/s: I miss you, Azlan Ainuddin <3

Just a Little Something...

Hey...

Actually aku tak tau nak type ape dalam post kali nie. Nak cite what is happening in my life macam takde bende je. Work? I think I may have the best job ever. Yela, maybe just keje under UiTM's student service scheme but I think the pay is good and the hours are flexible and I can take days off sesuka hati but the only thing I need to make sure is that I complete my 24 hours a month. Kalau boleh, more. And make sure tak dapat gaji buta. Well, coz tak banyak keje sekarang, agak macam buta jugak la but my lecturer said just datang and cukupkan jam so dah lecturer yg paling best cakap cmtu. Ikut aje lah hehehe... But seriously, I am lucky for working under Dr. Mariah coz she is the best! ^_^

Life? Macam takde life je kat Shah Alam nie. Not much friends. Macam kera sumbang lak kan? Hehehe... Well, I prefer to be like this. Some people say less is more. But sometimes having time alone is kinda soothing. But having some company is fun too. But in Shah Alam, all I have here is Fiza Amin and Adib. Adib balik kampung memandangkan tengah cuti PANJANG kan and Fiza is damn busy working. Kesian pun ada jugak kat minah tu. Working too hard huhuhu... And at times memang nak balik Tanjong Malim but the expenses nak pegi balik memang mahal and coz nak kawen, I have to jimat sebanyak mungkin. So going back pun fkr banyak kali. Pegi balik dh rm50+ and that rm50 can last me more then 1 week in Shah Alam and kalau balik lama memang berbaloi but just balik over the weekends, memang not worth it...

World? Hmm... Malas boleh nak masuk bab dunia? Too much negativity in the world today. Boleh tak kita semua have world peace? Macam Miss World beauty pageant lak hahaha... But honestly that's the only thing I want for the world. No fighting, no suffering and everybody helping everybody without wanting anything in return. Wouldn't that be a perfect world? But I guess that would be impossible kan?...

Family? I love them! And surely missing them. And surely gonna miss them more once I get married..... But when I do get married, I'll have more family members and also a family of my own! That would be fun. Fun and full with responsibility. I can't wait to have a baby of my own. I wanted a baby way before I wanted to get married! Hahaha... They are just so adorable! OK, takmo get carried away talking about babies hehehe...

Fiance? Love life? Never been better. I guess this is what they call fate. I never knew the man of my dreams was someone I knew all along. I have nothing to complain about coz there is nothing to complain about. Pujian? He's everything. He's everything sweet with sugar on top. He's the only person that ever made me feel special. (ok, nak nangis type ayat nie T_T). And the best thing, he knows me. He knows what I'm thinking, what I wanna do, what I'm gonna do. He really knows me well. Meaning he pays attention to me, to what I do and also to my thoughts. He never gets tired of entertaining me. Segala kerenah aku semua dia layankan. He never skips a day telling me I'm cute and a ton more I can't possibly type down... But about him, he has the sweetest smile, the funniest laugh, the cutest personality, and the hottest face without his glasses (sorry b but pls keep the glasses on, nanti semua orang terpikat hihihi). But most of all, he is a gentleman and unique in his own way. I love him for him being him and I never want him to change....

OK, look at the time. Esok nak kne g keje. Damn. Ok. Bye!

Baju Nikah...

OK, this will be my first entry about baju nikah! Selama nie i just rambled about bila tarikh and so and so but this will be my official entry of starting out my mission to my wedding day! ^_^

I have a few designs of baju nikah that I like. Sebelum2 nie I just bincang with my parents and fiance on which looked nice. And tetiba I talked to Rina about this and she said, 'ko wt la blog bride to be tuh'... Aku ada dah kot blog so I'll be just talking about my wedding preps kat sini aje lah ye hehehe.... So Rina Hamid, sila lihat what I have in plan for my baju nikah designs hihihi...

First of all, memang in my mind and my moms mind nak buat baju kurung moden je. I had a few ideas in mind but mainly I heart so much baju kurung moden yg kain dia ada ropol2 tu. I have no idea what tukang2 jahit luar sana call it but here is one design that I like...

Pic taken from a B2B blog tp lupa sape -_-'
Tapi tengok la kain dia! I am so into this kinda design!
Tapi my mom kurang suka tapi my dad suka...
So coz of that, lets see another design ^_^

Cantek kannnn?!
This design mak suka, abah suka, encik tunang pun suka! ^_^
So I guess I'm gonna do this kinda design for my baju nikah...
Tak nampak macam kurung moden kan? I also dunno baju nie apa namanya...
But yang penting, gambar contoh dah ada, kain dah ada n nak kne cari tailor je...
Agak2 sume tailor leh ke jahit baju cmnie?
Hmm...

So design dah tau, just kne cari tailor! So Rina Hamid, ko rasa tailor cina yang ko cakap tuh boleh ke buat baju cmnie? Hope she can! Aku dah dapat green light dari parents and Lan untuk design nie hehehe....

Tak Suka...

I was thinking whether to teruskan or stop blogging once I get married... Or I'd just continue writing but not stuff about my rumahtangga... Still pondering.... No one really reads my blog so pape aje lah... But one thing I do know now is that aku tak suka perempuan itu... Apa tujuan dia pun aku tak tau... I just hate when things like this happen... Makes me worried and scared... I know I shouldn't but I do and there is nothing I can do about that... Haish...

Persiapan...

Hola mi blog!

So... What I wanted to ask sudah ditanya... So 99% my uncle will sponsor baju, pelamin, gubah hantaran and also be my pak andam. The only thing to do now is ask him when will be the right time to try all the baju2 sanding and stuff... I also need to tell him that I want to prepare everything a bit early... Just the fitting last minute pun takpe but not really last minute ye...

And another good news is Rina Hamid pun akan kawen! Yeay! Mulut aku masin! Aku dah cakap tak semestinya aku tunang dulu, aku kawen dulu. Nah, tengok! Rina kawen dulu! Yeay! Hahaha.. OK, I'm not cheering coz she's going first or what but I'm cheering coz one of my best friend is getting married and dekat pulak tarikh dengan aku, meaning we can both talk about persiapan perkahwinan! Yeay!!! Hahahaha... OK Rina Hamid! Lets get this going! ^_^

Next, Fiza Amin! Lets see when her time comes! OK, now I can see most of my friends are getting married! Yang tak disangka2 pulak tuh! Hehehe... Hope that Fiza Amin will also be getting married by next year too. Lizi pun will be getting married early next year! So 4 down and a lot more to go... Can't wait for the other Araunians to get married too. I really wanna see them happy :)

By the way, it is true about what they say dugaan bertunang... It's just a good thing that Kamarul Azlan is my fiance... Maybe others won't do the same thing as he did and I appreciate his honesty... He even makes me love him more!... But at the same time I get worried. I dunno if I should be worried or not but I do feel worried a bit... No, not worried but scared... I guess that's the right word for it.... I just wouldn't know what to do if it gets overboard. I never thought this would happen so I'm leaving it all to him to handle. I just hope he can handle it well. I don't want him to slip. He can't....

All my friends say that if anything goes wrong, it'll be my fault. Well, even my parents say the same thing. Not exactly in that way but they already gave me a warning to not do any stupid things coz I'm engaged. OK, that statement came from my dad! Which I never thought I'd hear from him... It's just that I'm hooked. Totally head over heels for my fiance. And saham aku pun has dropped like way down below negative! So what else is there to be worried of from me right? Certainly I won't fall for my stupid ex again for what he did sangat melampau and also he is married. I will also certainly won't fall for the 2nd ex even if he is the last person on earth!... I'd definitely ignore Hugh Jackman's proposal if he wants to marry me... So who on earth could beat that?! Hugh kot! Hahahahaha... So obviously I won't do anything stupid. If I do, I am stupid...

OK, dah melalut... But actually I got a point there. Sape leh faham isi tersirat, anda memang terer! But maybe no one could guess. Maybe only Mr. Fiance je faham. Maybe he will, maybe he won't but I guess maybe he will... Ntah lah... Sebab now dah nak kawen kan, I am gonna have to learn to keep to myself. Yes, I do keep things to myself but if tak tahan I'll eventually talk to someone... This someone should be my fiance which then will be my husband... I just hope everything will be OK... But I have a good feeling that everything will be OK :)

p/s: Thank you Fiance! Thank you for everything! Thank you for what u have done, are doing and will be doing! You are the best! Love you with all my heart ♥♥♥

Dates...

Hi Blog!

OK, perselisihan faham antara saya dengan tunang dimana I think it's my fault coz i overreacted but you also can't blame a girl when she is having her PMS right? I'm sorry Encik Tunang for overreacting.... But at least it shows that I love you right? Coz I do with all my heart!...

Another thing I wanna write about is concerning my wedding preparations. My solemnization date if I'm not mistaken will be during my final exams! So maybe there will be a bit of changes in the date. Or maybe not. I gotta talk to my dad about this. And if there is no problem, the date will not be changed. So lets just see about that. I'm gonna see my parents today and talk about it ASAP or maybe in Bandung. Oh, yeah, I'm going to Bandung tonight! Well, I ain't that excited coz I'm surely gonna miss my fiance like hell when I'm there huhuhu...

OK, because of the solemnization date has a bit of a problem, I think it wont be postponed. It may be carried forward. I dunno, lets just see but coz of that, I'm worried about the reception, bertandang, door gifts and hantaran preparation and all. All that must be prepared by Next February. I don't want thing to go outta hands and will effect my studies. I don't really think it will but I'm afraid it will coz we only get married once so I wanna make sure that everything goes OK on my wedding day...

Some things I gotta talk about with my dad is on the wedding outfits and pelamin and makeup and stuff. I can't forget that one coz I don't want my Uncle to have last minute calls to makeup for a drama or movie or what not. So in order for this not to happen, I gotta talk to my dad about this coz he wants his brother to take charge of these outfits and makeup stuff. I just can't handle the stress if he has to work on my wedding day. It'll be a DISASTER!

OK, so just to take note, today or while in Bandung, talk to dad about these stuff!:
Ask about kaler tema! (I want silver or goldish yellow coz pakai songket kn?)
Tarikh nikah!
Baju sanding, makeup, pelamin!
Hantaran sape gubah!
Door gifts! (say to get the stuff ready by Feb)
Catering!
Dewan!
Card!

What else eh? Hmmm.....

p/s: saje letak kaler biru sbb tema encik tunang katanya mau biru2 cmnie kot hehehe... Or cmnie... I'm not sure hahahaha...

Heartache...

It has been a while (can say more then 2 years) of having the feeling of someone squeezing my heart, making it ache... Ntah la, I'm outta words here... I just hate this feeling........

Ujian dan Dugaan...

People say that 'masa bertunang nie la banyak dugaan'..... I still have a long engagement to go thru but actually for me, before I knew my fiance I already went thru all the shit and so called dugaan in my 25 years of life... I know I can go thru this engagement with all the dugaan for I know I have went thru worst in my past...

Omputeh's saying 'if it doesn't kill you, it only makes you stronger' is a saying that I can so relate to. Yes, all the shit I went thru only made me stronger and the women I am today. I know everything happens for a reason. Maybe the shit I went thru is preparing me for my future rumahtangga. Or maybe it was just a test given by Him in order to see if I can handle the tests He gave me. Or maybe He wanted me to suffer big time first in order to give me unconditional happiness in the end... I can say I am happy now. Very happy... But I got a whole life ahead of me and I know that the tests just doesn't stop here... Even if I die tomorrow, I still have to answer to the angels dalam kubur and we still have to go thru The Day of Judgment...

So to conclude whatever I was babbling about is that I went thru a lot; and I say A LOT, before I met Azlan aka my fiance. So I guess all the talk on 'masa bertunang nie banyak dugaan' is one thing I can handle, InsyaAllah... But personally I think that Allah memang sentiasa memberi ujian kepada hambaNya in order for us to remember Him. It is because He loves us. That is the reason why he gives us all these tests and stuff. The harder it is, the more He loves us... So nanti lepas kawen pun mesti ada ujian dan dugaan jugak kan? Meaning, for me, going thru all this dugaan and ujian is just another phase of life...

No Title...

Hola! I'm back and dunno what to write about... Well....

OK, had problems with my broadband. Thanks to 'Shikin' the customer service lady, she helped me with my problem without going to the maxis center. Aku memang pemalas nak kuar. Unless terpaksa or I want to. But most of the time, I don't want to. Yes, I like staying home. Because I don't have any money to spend buying this and that. Which mostly will be spent on food and stuff which is not for me but my sisters. I dunno why but I like buying stuff for them if its in my budget la. Out of budget sorry la, tak dapek den nak nolong....

Tonight I'm going back to Shah Alam. I hate going back to Shah Alam. Even though my mom always babbles and preach and gets angry with no certain reason, I love staying home and listening to my moms babbles and such. Sometimes saje bagi dia membebel kan coz memang gatai nak dengar hahaha... Well, bila lagi kan nak dengar mak membebel kn? Sometimes we'll never know how precious people are until we're old enough or to the less fortunate, until we loose them. For me, I love my mom and my dad of course. Walaupun mak BANYAK membebel tapi aku sayang dia and speaking of this, this is the last year I can balik Tanjong Malim. Pening kan? Actually this is the last year I'm gonna be single. Next year I'll be Mrs Azlan and balik Penang lak. I love the fact I'm gonna live in Penang but the sad part is I won't be coming back to Tanjong Malim much. Of course la balik Penang jumpa husband kan? Husband will be my priority pulak. OK, a mix of feelings here....

But YES! I can't wait to be married to my fiance. I know we'll have a happy marriage together. Yes, there will be some things we're gonna go thru but I know we can go thru this. But seriously now, I am so lazy to go and shop for my hantaran handbag! Kasut pun malas boleh? But I am excited for searching makeup and skin care for hantaran hehehe... Searching for telekung pun takde masalah I guess, it's not that hard as searching for the perfect handbag and shoes... OK, aku cerewet. Kalau tak suka, jangan harap nak beli. And if dah masuk a few shops and still haven't found what I like, I'll get fed up... Pity Encik Azlan...

Saving up for buying Azlan's hantaran pun almost half way. I'm gonna have to save up another 1k for buying barang hantaran. Haish, mampukah? Dah la gaji sikit. Nak baiki hp yang rosak tak baiki2 lagi nie. But takpe, saving money untuk kawen is more important. And I'm FAT!!! 50kg!!! How am I gonna loose 6kgs?! or maybe just 4 hehehe... I just love to eat! And hate exercise! But I like cycling... Anybody wants to buy me a bicycle? Lets go cycling in Suck Alam! Urgh, I'm fat......

Going back to the topic of kawen kawen, I still haven't made up my mind on what color I want to wear for the reception. Maybe I'll just take a look at the baju2 sanding and everything and try a few on and baru pick a color. Is that OK? I guess that's OK. Is it OK? And where can I send my kain nikah untuk dijahit eh? Yes, walaupun lambat lagi I really need to know where to send the kain. I don't want my baju nikah be a disaster! Kalau disaster, komfem jadi Bridezilla! And the rest, I think I won't have to think about much. My parents and aunties and uncles are handling the rest. I'll just see whether I like what their doing or not....

Owh! On the 24th I'm going back to Penang to attend kursus kawen! Dapat pegi kursus kawen with Encik Tunang! Suka suka hehehe...

OK, I guess that's it. Merepek je nie, ntah ape ntah yang aku type nie... OK, need to get packing and a cooking! Buat sardine sandwich je hehehe... JOM!

Pressure....

Hi blog... How are you? I'm not doing very good............

Why? Maybe it's my PMS I guess.... Or maybe I do feel a bit pressured about this...... I dunno.... Sentap kot...... It's true that there is a reason why our parents tak kasi kita do something.... Now I'm feeling the pressure....... When she told me that, terus sentap... It wasn't bad but still terasa....... I don't want people to get the wrong idea about me, lagi lagi future in laws so I guess it's better to stay away and be more independent........ But it's gonna be hard and this will definitely turn into a fight....... I seriously dunno what I am doing is the right thing or not......... I just don't want people to think that I'm taking advantage which I am so not coz I hate taking advantage..... I seriously dunno what to do........................

Target...

Hi again blog....

Last day of May is already here and tomorrow will be 1 month being engaged and 5 months being with my fiance. Some people ask how does it feel being engaged? I feel the same everyday but the idea of being someones fiancee is great! And also the day of my engagement of course hehehe...

So, just got back from Tanjong Malim actually. So tiring. Before that I was in Penang meeting my fiance and learning a few business stuff. Wow, banyak kali jugak kn guna perkataan 'my fiance'. Suka suka! Hehehe... OK, saba Nurul... The meeting with my fiance this time was educating and of course fun could never be taken out of the picture ^_^

However our goals when we meet is always eating some place that we (more to ME) wanted to eat such as Subway, Nandos, Kenny Rogers, Ikan Bawal, Laksa and so on wasn't met. Well, we wanted to go eat there but our tummies were full akibat heavy breakfast with future MIL and future BIL. Another reason my cravings weren't met is because we just don't have enough time. 1 whole day takkan la nak melantak all that kan? But what we got to do was Starbucks! Hehehe...

My fiance also took me to see Fast 5. Seriously I felt so damn guilty for agreeing to take the midnight show. One thing about my fiance is that he can't stay up that late, hehehe... So the midnight movie was a wrong decision... (B syg, sy tak kutuk, b comel sangat bila terlentok2 dalam wayang tu hehehe) But seriously looking at him terlentok2 ngantok, I felt damn guilty... So after this, no more midnights...

The next day, he offered to send me back to Tanjong Malim. The second time. First was when we officially became an item and now as his fiancee. That I also felt guilty coz Tanjong Malim and Penang ain't that near you know. Besides that, the money spent sending me home also ain't a small amount. Dah la nak simpan duit nak kawen kan? Lepas tu dok membazir with sending me home bagai. I should of just say no. Tapi gedik and selfish nak spend more time with fiance.....................

Stayed 1 day at Tanjong Malim, seriously didn't wanna come back to Suck Alam! But I have to. Need to claim gaji and nak mintak cuti for next week. I hate coming back so much that I don't even feel like talking about it coz it sucks big time...

OK... We planned to take the kursus kawen in July but we've got to know that USM holds its kursus at the end of each month so enf of July puasa so tak jadi. Maybe we would be going in the end of June. Hmm... I'll update about that soon and my goal before kawen is:

1) KURUSKAN BADAN!!! (get back the 44kg's 6 years ago!)

2) Licinkan muka yang penuh dengan parut jerawat n also jerawat! (boleh ke?)

3) Sihatkan badan... (agak musykil, bila nk exercise nye?)

4) Improve self... (masak, prangai etc)

Tu je kot... If there is more, I'll update on that too... So sleeping time! KOT! The time is showing 107am already... So peeps, I'm off... Over and out...




p/s: ok,i'm missing kamarul azlan like crazy now...

Hmmm...

Hi blog....

Actually I have no idea what to write in here. Erm... Gambar tunang malas nk upload boleh? Lgpun followers here sume ada my fb so just see there la. My lil sis lagi la, upload sume gambar yang ntah hape2 but takpe lah. Kenangan hehehe...

Lepas tu, my exams are finished, waiting for my results in July... Now I'm full time SKS worker. And my lecturer wants me to continue my contract in July and August where IPSIS tetapkan we should sambung in September. I don't want to continue the contract in July and August coz I'll be all alone at home in Shah Alam. Yang paling teruk is masa puasa! Berbuka sorang2. That is so sad! So readers, please pray for me that IPSIS tak bagi sambung contract those two months...

Besides my boring old life, one thing that makes me all excited is that I'm getting married! OK, fine, I know lambat lagi, 1 year+ lagi but can't a girl be excited? Hehehe... OK, I admit that I never thought about these stuff before. I only start thinking about this thing after my engagement and now I'm so lost! I dunno where to start! But the thing that I'm so looking forward is on the dresses. My dad wants me to wear songket! I never liked songket. But it depends. If I look good in it, what the hell la kn? So I'm thinking to try on these stuff just to make sure I look the best on my wedding day. OMG! Seriously I think I'm turning into a cerewet old lady that wants this and that for her wedding. But its a once in a lifetime thing right? I want things to be perfect. Well we will never get perfect but at least orang cakap puas hati....

So whats my problem right now is I dunno where to start and when to start. Bila nak start cari baju sanding, bila nk start anta kain nikah ke tailors, bila nk siapkan all the door gifts, when nk start upah kad and how long does it take to siap, and all the other stuff. People say awal2 kne start tp 1 year+ cam lama lagi so nak start bnde? So pening... And another thing yang I dunno what to decide is my tema kawen. Belah laki dah tau dah, BLUE! Just what kinda blue I'm not sure. Hari tu Encik Tunang tunjuk but I forogot boleh? Hehehe... So my side apa yang cantek eh? White+Pink? White+Lavender? White+Turquoise? White+Pink+Lavender? I need help.......

OK lah, nak tengok tv2,cm best je cte dia hehehe...

Esok!

If only I knew then what I know now... Encik Tunang knows what I mean... But what I really want to say is that I can't wait for tomorrow! Nak jumpa Encik Tunang! Its been more about 2 months jumpa Encik Tunang kejap2 je. Nak sembang pun tak puas... OK, gtg... It looks like it's gonna rain... Balik naik bus pulak... Haish... Adios peeps!

Summary...

Who would ever thought that I'd be engaged right? I mean for the people who knows me and my history of my so called love life, I'd be the last person on their list to actually get engaged and get married. OK, maybe not last but one of the last hehehe...

Actually, it is kinda shocking for me too to be engaged. I'm sure that my Encik Tunang also feels the same. Kan b kan? Hehehe... It happened so fast and out of our hands. OK, we could do something but I guess both of us were ready to jump into the next stage of our relationship.

We had been actually been 'dating' for 1 month before we decided to be a couple. And we were a couple for 1 month when I met his family and his family met mine. Actually Encik Tunang's mom said that they just wanted to get to know my parents. OK, so the day after I met them, they went to see my parents and all of a sudden, something like something happened! Hahaha... And the next thing I know, my risik day was set which was changed to my tunang date. After coupling for 1 month and dating for 2, this is the result. Freaky right? Hehehe...

Well, me and Encik Tunang both was shocked and both were speechless. I asked if he was OK and he asked if I was OK. I was obviously in shock but yes, I was OK. I dunno why but I was. I didn't even have second thoughts of what was happening. It's like I know that this is it. And alhamdulillah, our relationship went well for the past 2 months while waiting for our engagement day...

Our engagement day was on the 1st of May, exactly 4 months since the day we were together. Kejap je kan? That's why I said, takde sape sangka. When I told my friends pun, they were shocked most Hang Nur! She was so excited! She made me even more excited! Hahaha... Seriously I love that makcik. She's been with me through everything. She was there when I was happy, she was there when I was sad. She was always with me through my ups and downs. Thanks Hang Nur! Love you till death! OK, enough about that. Nanti jadi tribute to Hang Nur pulak hehehe...

And before we knew it, we were engaged! (^___^)

Now we have 1 year+ to plan for our wedding. I suck at stuff like this and its a good thing that my dad's brother's and sister's are experts on this stuff. Well, not experts but they know more then we do hehehe... So, I'll be letting them handle my wedding la kot. Kot la. Of course I have to look into it also right? Do I have to? This thing will surely make me clueless like hell! OK, lets not think about it. But what I do know is that I want my wedding to be the best wedding for me and Encik Tunang. Sweet and simple. Just like me. BLUEEKKKK!!! Hahahahaha... Nak muntah puji diri sendiri hahahaha...

OK, I think this is it for now. A lot of my friends say that masa tunang, ada banyak dugaan kne tempuh. Well, I hope everything will be just fine. I hope both of us can go through everything together. OK2, panas gila dah nie. Thinking of taking a shower....

ENGAGED!

Encik Tunang! I <3 you sooooo much!!! I didn't tell you that you looked so handsome in Baju Melayu kn? Well, you do hehehe...

Me! Thanks Rin for the gorgeous picture! ^_^

Me and Encik Tunang! It's kinda disappointing that me and Encik Tunang takde proper picture together while our ceremony. Well, we'll make it up on our wedding ya. Boleh kn b? ^____^

The whole gang!!! Thanks guys for coming!!! Sangat3 terharu tau!!!

I'm officially engaged to my Encik Tunang, Kamarul Azlan! OK, do I feel any difference? Erm, I don't think so. I feel just the same. Just engaged hahaha... The only difference is now I don't say 'My boyfriend bla bla bla' but I say 'My fiance aka tunang bla bla bla'... Actually I like using that word... Seronok hehehe...

I had a blast on my engagement day. I thought that I'd be nervous or something. Yeah, I was nervous but only in the beginning when I was called out of the room for the sarung cincin ceremony and stuff. Damn, I so did not know what to do. Gila blurrrr hahaha... Tapi when all that was done and the people went to menjamu selera, that was it! I had a blast with taking pictures and having fun with my dearest friends and family! I want to upload more pictures taken by my sister but it's with her in Tanjung Malim. These pictures are the pictures that I just copied from Facebook from my friends. Maybe I will upload more. MAYBE. So lazy uploading but MAYBE I'll make an exception this time hehehe...

Oh, and the best part was I did not have to do ANYTHING! I was like a princess. Nak do something tapi dihalang. All I did was potong bunga for bunga rampai. That's it.... And seriously, I can't wait to be married to my Encik Tunang. Nak cantek2 lagi! Hehehe... But most of all, I can't wait to live my life as a wife to my Encik Tunang. I really hope I can be a good wife and also give him cute children... I also hope that I can be a good daughter-in-law and sister-in-law to his family. This freaks me out most of all. I hope I can cope and adapt right away in this new role...

Well, look at the time. I'll probably write more soon. Now I gotta go to bed. Encik Tunang wanted me to sleep before 3am but now its 3.12am! Haish, asyik ingkar bakal suami nie. Apa la Nurul... OK2, lets jom! Hehehe...

*happy mood*

<3 <3 <3

p/s: thanks to mak,abah,amir,ziqah,asyikin and adik beradik abah in cheras for making my E-day the best E-day ever! <3 u guys till death!

Demam T_T

In less then 48 hours I'm officially gonna be someones fiance. The best part is, I'm sick! My body aches, my nose is running and my throat hurts. I hope I'll recover by Sunday. It's gonna suck being sick on your engagement day..................

Gonna update this blog after the day coz in a few hours, I'm off to Cheras! I hope everything is gonna be OK......... And I'm excited to see the preparations! I hope my flu goes away when I see my pelamin and hantaran and stuff ^____^

MERDEKA! NOT! 7 DAYS TO GO!

Finally done with exams! But there is still one more assignment that needs to be done. Damn. But I'm gonna rest for a few days first, get some SKS work done and see what else is needed for my E-Day! OK, I still gotta find a tudung for the special day and give my uncle my dress for him to find me a selendang. Basically that's just it, I guess. The rest my family is arranging ^_^

Oh, and my dress KETAT KOT! Or is it meant to follow my body shape? But I think ketat kot. Mana taknye, ukur badan last two and a half months ago! Now? Dah gemok kot! Damn. OK, days left, 7. Vegetable soup ONLY is on my diet. And some sit ups. Yes, I can do it even though I love to eat!

OK, I'm sleepy. Sleeping Time! Gudnite peeps!

p/s: i miss u kamarul azlan....................................................

14 days and Counting...

2 weeks without a blog update. Now I'm damn busy with finals and last assignments. Two more assignments to go. Good thing I'm doing it early, not last minute like last time so I have time to relax and study for my finals. Next week are my finals, 19th, 20th and 22nd of April. Such a nightmare ain't it? Good thing two of my papers are open books. I just have to know where are all the main topics and what is important. It seriously sucks being a student but at the same time its damn fun! I just can't wait till next Friday! I seriously want this semester to end!

Another big thing happening in my life is my engagement! Tomorrow I hope my kak cik is free to take me to Jalan TAR to try out my dress. I really hope it looks good on me. If not, my dad's 700 bucks is a waste. I just really hope I don't look like an imbecile. Damn! And I still need to get my tudung done! OK, that I'll do after my finals. Hope I have time. And with my finals coming, I really don't have much time to think much about my engagement. I'm lucky that I have parents and aunts and uncles who can take care of the preparations for me. I'll only have 1 week to see if everything is OK. And I really hope that everything goes well on that day. OK, I am excited! I'll be someones fiance in 2 more weeks! ^_____^

Tick Tock...

Gila lama rasanya tak tulis blog... Been damn busy lately with assignments and also work! I'm almost done with my academic writing. All I have to do now is write the abstract and type down all my references. After that, I'm gonna have to photocopy the pages of books that I quoted from. LECEH SIOT! Now I know the difference between degree and masters... And I've learned my lesson. Degree, no worries, can do assignments last minute. Masters, a big NO NO!

Now, I've still got tons of assignments to finish and my finals are coming up in another 3 weeks! My engagement is in another 4 weeks. Good thing I did early preparations.... Phew....

OK... Time to continue with my assignment... Oh, and this weekend walaupun kje banyak gila babs, I'm having a girls day out with my future sister in laws! I like them hehehe... OK, bai!

If The Life In Front of Me...

If the life in front of me is cut short, I'd tell the people I love that I love them. I won't take for granted each day that goes by. I'd be a better person, a better muslim, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend.

If the life in front of me is cut short, I'd spend my last days with the people I love. I'd ask for forgiveness to the people around me and the people who ever knew me.

If the life in front of me is cut short, I'd thank those people who always been there for me. I'd tell them how they made my life more meaningful and happier. I'd tell them how much they mean to me and if it weren't for their support, I wouldn't be where I am now.

If the life in front of me is cut short............

But I'm only human. Nobody knows when exactly they'll leave this world. I still have a few things on my list to do before I go and I hope I get to fulfill them before I leave. Well, not a few but maybe just one. If I get to do this one, I'd be happy and satisfied.

*mak
*abah
*brother n sisters
*kamarul azlan
*araunians aka marketeers
i love u guys so much!
my life is almost perfect thanks to u guys!

Last Weekend...

Last Saturday lepak2 with Kamarul Azlan' s family. I had a great time. Seriously I had fun but segan siot! The reason I went out with them and they came to Shah Alam was to find kain nikah and also rings. On Saturday, we searched for the rings at KLCC. Lama kot ambik masa. But I liked the rings chosen. I feel a bit bad coz the rings are expensive! But my mother-in-law-to-be is the best! I actually feel like part of the family ^____^

On Sunday, cari kain nikah. Was kinda embarrassing coz had to ikat2 the kain around me in front of Azlan but WTH, he's gonna be my husband after all right? Hehehe... Seronok lak rasa cakap cmtu hehehe...

Besides the tunang stuff hunting, we went to see anak sedara baru Azlan, Marissa! Sangat comel kot! Cam nak gigit2 pipi budak tu. And we also hung out makan2 and and sembang2. Nak cte banyak2 but its Adib's time to use the internet. Saje nak update my blog. Dah takde kje kn? Hehehe...

Oh, and I'm gonna get to see my Azlan again next week! This time I'm gonna find his ring. I'm buying him a platinum ring hehehe... Abah will show me the shop that he bought his ring and saya mau beli cincin yang cantik untuk dia coz he will be wearing it like for the rest of his life! OK, gtg, Adib's turn!

*mood ngntok tp tahan mata n also mood gila happy ^___^*

Weeee!!!

Now the time is 2.06am, Thursday morning......

Tomorrow will be Friday......

And then Saturday!!!

Meet Orang Terasayang Day ^____^

Rendu lah kat dia....

One Hellava Day...

Perkakas hantaran, done!
Baju tunang also done! Just perlu pegi fitting on the 15th of April...
Penat n gila blur siapkan these stuff...

Barang2 hantaran lak almost done... Things left for me to handle are:
1) Ring
2) Kain baju nikah

Things for mak to handle are:
1) Cake (on the day or the day before)
2) Chocolate (a few days before)
3) Sampin (ada sudah at Penang)
4) Sejadah (unsure)
5) Fruits (the day before)
6) Tepak sireh (ada sudah)

After what I need to get is done, I'll be at ease and I can concentrate on my assignments and finals. Persiapan and everything, I'll leave it to the elders to handle ^__^

Gatai-gatai...

As stated above, I have never thought much about marriage. I mean the reception, dresses, preparations and stuff. Since schooling days till now, all I thought about was after ijab and kabul. Coz to me that was all that matters. A happy marriage.

All my life I thought of having a simple wedding. Not too fancy, just simple, like me. I still have no idea of what color my wedding dress will be or what theme should I choose for my reception. I even have no idea what color my engagement dress will be. I'm so clueless about this stuff and I need serious HELP!

OK, but the main point here is that everybody I know has their Fantasy Marriage or Dream Wedding or something they want during their wedding but me? All I want is a stress free wedding, a nice wedding dress, cool makeup for the pics and to live happily ever after with my Superman and a few little superman juniors...

Sounds easy huh? Well, it ain't that easy. Just planning an engagement day pun agak susah. Just imagining planning your own wedding! Well, good thing I can hand this part to my family (which are also as clueless as me!) and my fathers siblings. Yes, they know what they are doing. I hope...

Ceh, dah gatai cakap pasai kawen padahal tunang pun belum... Gatai...

18 Feb - 21 Feb

You're the one thing, I can't get enough of. So I tell you something, this could be love because I had the time of my life, and I never felt this way before. Yes I swear, this is true and I owe it all to u!

Thanks Superman, I really had the time of my life the last 4 days. Thanks for everything! Suka sangat and I hope that we can spend time together again ~_^

And another thing on my mind is another 9 weeks plus left. Sempat atau tak ntah nak siapkan semua barang? Dah la April nak finals. Assignment pulak membukit menimbun bagai and tak reti buat. Just hope sempat siapkan semua before my finals. But overall, I'm excited! ^__^

Takde Bende...

Sekarang saya gila mengantok! Supposed to do some work tapi mengantok and ngadap FB pulak and then gatal nak update blog...

Whats new about my studies? Nothing. Makin banyak assignments that needs to be taken care of. Almost all assignments memerlukan JOURNAL! Okeh, finding journal or articles ain't that hard but the hard part is figuring out whether the journal or article chosen relates to the topic or question given by the lecturers. I guess it wouldn't be that hard if I had a mass comm background but I took a degree in Marketing so I have no idea what the hell I'm learning in class. OK, I know what I'm learning in Communication Theories class and I get the picture of what I'm supposed to learn in Media Ethics. BUT! I don't have a single idea what I'm learning in Dr. Rahmat's class, Contemporary Issues and boleh tak I don't remember the full name of that subject? Dem,hahahahahahahaha...

So now I have lots of assignments to do. Yang memeningkan kepala is the Contemporary Issues assignments. Good thing I have my good ol' daddy o to help me on this. Yes, I am very lucky! ^_____^

Yes, I am very lucky again ^__________^
*dalam kepala otak nie dok ingat kat kamarul azlan and how cute he is being an uncle or even a daddy* *so cute!*

Okeh Nurul, shut up... Actually nak selit that I can't wait for tomorrow! Gonna meet my Superhero tomorrow ^_______^

Enuf... Adib (my housemate) ajak makan sebelum dia g class. JOM! High tea is on me! lol ;)

I am Lucky...

I just wanted to state here that I am the luckiest person in the world! I don't have everything but I love the things I have. I love the people around me and I love what is happening currently in my life which I never ever thought would happen to me. Well, there is a few stressful stuff but overall, I am lucky and happy.

Hey Superman,

I have no complaints at all about you. You call me, text me but your calls and texts never suffocates me. You know why? Coz you understand. You understand when I'm busy, you understand my situation when I'm with my friends, you understand when I have classes, you understand my job, you understand when I'm with my family, you understand my timetable. Basically, you are so understanding I can't find nor I can see the slightest negative thing about you.

I'm loving you more and more each day. I love you....

I love that you are soooo romantic! I never wanted someone romantic but you changed my mind making me feel that I am definitely the most luckiest girl in the world having a guy like you. I bet all the girls in the world would want to be in my shoes...

I love that you tak penat2 layan my kerenah yang gedik dan ngade ini and ada2 je benda nak mengarut. You know when to be serious, you know when to play around and the best is that you know how to respect me. You are the 1st boyfriend that can make me laugh until sakit2 perut. OK, maybe it's coz I was teasing you but I like teasing you. It's fun! ^_^

I love that you are truly a gentleman. You do wear the pants in this relationship. Or should I say red underwear? LOL... Just kidding but you do wear the pants and I like you planning stuff ahead coz I am so not a planner and I hate planning. So, I guess for our wedding nanti, you'll be the one thinking about all the tema, baju and I also dunno what else there is to think of LMAO...

I love your sincerity. It shows you know? ~_^

Last but not least, I love the way you love me. It's as if you'd do anything and everything for me. And I guess you would do anything and everything for me. And just to let you know, I'd do the same. I'd do whatever it takes to make you happy even if it means to let you go. Nah, I won't kot! I'd be stupid! OK, I'll keep you prisoner in my house FOREVER! lmao!...

Oh, there is more! But this I want to thank you for accepting me the way I am. I am not perfect. Nobody is perfect. But Mohd Kamarul Azlan, you are perfect for me. You complete me. Thank you for taking me on this wonderful journey. Even though it has been just a few months, I am definitely ready taking a step forward in our relationship. 3 months to go and insyaAllah, I'll be loving you for ever...


p/s: hajat nk tulis blog aku nie sgt bertuah,tukar lak jd surat cinta... ntah pape... patut siapkan kje tp berblog... syabas beta, mubarako... au bete au, time to sleep hai...

Haish...

Payah la no kalau dh lagu nie...

One Great Happy Holiday!

OK, this Chinese New Years was the best ever! Cam aku orang cina kan? Over lebih BUT it still was the beginning of something great, amazing, fantastic and extra-ordinary in my life...

I feel shockingly happily excited! Well, more to the shocking part where I still have to sink in what is happening here. But overall, I'm happy. Very happy. So damn happy. Happily scared LMAO...

I guess that is it for this post. Just wanted to write down something for this month. BTW, my heart is so full with LOVE! Berat siot rasa hati aku nie hahahaha... Okeh, I'm done...

2011!

Boleh tak tak perasan langsung that my last post was the 1st post for the year 2011?! Kalut sangat nak update blog sampai tak prasan langsung. Teruk betul....

So, Happy New Years! 26 days late but better late than never right?... BTW, it's my brothers birthday today! Happy 28th Birthday Amir!!! Aku tunggu Sushi King nie hahahaha... And you are old man...

Last year I mentioned about my new years resolution yang more or less the same as Lizi's which is blaja masak (enhance my cooking skills), menjadi seorang pelajar yang cemerlang dan rajin when dah sambung masters (dah sambung but I still feel lazy as ever), exercise to be more healthy and slim melim (sikit pun belum berjalan lagi), learn new stuff and try to be a better person compared to last year (working on it), and find someone to spend the rest of my life with (dimana dah jumpa which changes this resolution to getting engaged lol)...

So, welcome 2011 and goodbye 2010!

4 weeks Update...

Wah, dekat sebulan x update blog! Been busy lately or more like i have no internet access! OK, here goes what happened these few weeks....

After my last post, I went to Penang and I had a great time with my friends. Well, sampai-sampai je Penang dah jumpa orang tersayang which already made me happy and got to hang out with my friends which made me happier and I got a bracelet and 2 shirts which made me more happier and the best thing was on the 1st of January, I am officially not single which menjatuhkan saham sendiri but still, I am the happiest and luckiest person ever in the world ^_^

Going back to Tanjong Malim was not fun. I was happy due to orang tersayang hantar but parting is the thing that I hate most. But we parted and he got to meet my mom and dad and me and my family terus shoot to Shah Alam where I am staying now studying my masters degree in mass communication.

1st week was like hell! I cried! But eventually, everything now is going out great! I have great classmates which are great friends and I like them a lot. Oh, and there are so many pretty women in my class! Cuci mata tengok perempuan lawa every day yang ada class lol. And there is only one guy in my class and a very good class rep. Can depend on him not like other guys that I knew while studying my degree in Arau.

My classes are all in the morning but what happened this morning is that our classes will be changed in the evening! Urgh! I hate evening to night classes. I can't text my honey bunch and nak gayut pun susah. But lets see what happens on Thursday. Our class is gonna try and fix things so that we can have our usual time classes. Oh, and I got to be an RA! I wont have to ask for money from my parents anymore ^_^

Another event I'm looking forward on is 'Meeting the Parents'! Nope, not 'Meet the Fockers' but 'Meet the Ainuddins' hehehe... I hope his parents will like me. I got my fingers crossed... I'm seriously excitedly scared... But I'm gonna go thru this because I actually love this guy and am looking forward to have a future with him... So guys, wish me luck!...

*btw,his name is azlan ainuddin,sj gedik nk tulis nama dia kt sini hehe*