The Story of Giving Birth + Update Situ Sini

Hello Blog,

5 bulan I left you alone. Kesian. My baby is now almost 4 months. I delivered 8 days late. C-section.

Ok, I'll start from the beginning.

Went back home to Tanjung Malim early October, 6 October to be exact. All I did was eat, sleep. Parents were taking extra care of me. Felt like a princess LOL. Was waiting to feel any contractions or anything showing that the baby is ready to see the world but nada.

My birthday passed, so long to having the same birthday date as my daughter and her due date passed which made me feel sooooo annoyed coz I just wanted to get the baby out. Day after day I waited until the clinic gave me a letter if little baby still ain't out by the 10th day passed her due date, Imma be induced. On the 5th day post-date, baby was moving very less, next day went to the hospital to check and baby was fine. Thank God!

And a couple days later, her comes the contractions. 4 minutes apart. It didn't feel bad at all. Just the tummy tightening. Next day, went to the hospital again, they put me on a CTG scan thingy to check my babys heartbeat and stuff. It was not looking good so the nurse said the doc said if the babys heart rate stayed that way, I'm off to the surgery room. But it improved A BIT so you know gov doctors, they prefer natural birth and I want natural birth too. A VE was also done one me. The best thing, tip of finger was the opening. TIP OF FINGER?!!!! So I was allowed to go home but the doc and nurse said I can stay if I want.

So I said I'll stay just in case anything happened so I won't have to ask anybody to send me to the hospital again. Kebetulan that day was awwal muharram punya cuti so the visiting hours were until 7pm kalau tak salah la. So my parents came and went back home early. Tinggal me husband lah teman me. He went back and I went to the toilet and viola! Blood! And then the hurting began!!!

Even when I was contracting the nurses said I had high contractions. When blood came out, the pain started to rise. Tak boleh tahan, couldn't sleep at all! I asked for a VE coz it tak tahan. Bukaan, 1cm! I think that was about 1am. In 12 hours, 1cm je?! Sakit tuhan je tau. Cannot sleep. Than at 3am, they put me on a CTG scan again and did another VE. 3cm! And then they told me to get ready around 6am coz the doc is gonna pop my water.

Showered around 530am, got pushed to the labor room. The doc came and popped my water. The said once they do this I'll probably open more quickly. Banyak cantek muka depa la kan. What I remember was the pain got stronger, seriously I ask them for pain killers and epidural tapi tak mau kasi. Epidural tak dak k kat SLIM RIVER HOSPITAL. But seriously the pain. Finally they gave me pain killers. They said it will make me sleepy. So dapat la and memang tido pun tapi sakit. How to say ha? I was like separa sedar. When they gave me the pain killers I was 4cm dilated. I think that was around 1130am.

Lepas tu tak sedar diri, everything around me was blurry. The nurse said if I wanted to push, just push. Tu yang kepala anak keluar lonjong hahaha. Then I have no idea what time, a doc came and gave me papers to sign, I had no idea WTH was it for and I saw my husband talking to the doc. He also signed some papers. Then they put something in my tut tut, a peeing bag and took me to the operation room. Fetal distress. After 24hours, just 4cm dilated.

They cut me up, took my baby out, showed her tut tut to me first OK! Not her face hahaha. Kissed her, sewed me back up, and took me back to the ward. Did not see baby at all after that. Gained consciousness around 10pm, nurse helped me with everything. Was hearing a baby cry, didn't know it was mine LOL! A nurse was fedup, tak tau apa nak buat with my baby. Dengan kasarnya bagi baby to me. Senyap. The best thing, I dunno how to pegang baby! She just gave it to me tanpa ajar. Kira I pegang salah la and i think the head nurse asked kenapa pegang camtu, I said a nurse just abruptly gave the baby to me and I dunno how to pegang. So she showed me how to hold her and I think find the nurse who was responsible for not teaching me LMFAO. Serves her right.

I still remember how she looked at me the first time I held her in my arms. I still remember how she looked at me when she was lying beside me. That was the best feeling in the world. But everything was ruined when she got hungry hahaha.

Long story cut short, after another 2 days at the hospital, I went home.

Habissssss. But! A lot more things had happen. Like, kena admit balik, and dok hospital lagi lama dari beranak. Wanna know? Next post. Malaih nak taip dah.

Adios!