Passing Thru...

It's been a while not coming and updating my blog...
What happened during the last month?
Nothing much,the same old rutin...
Just another week and I'll be finishing my contract as a guru sandaran...
Dilemma again...
What the hell am i going to do next?

Work?
Xdapat any job that I applied for yet...

Further studies?
But I'm not sure if i should continue my business studies or go another direction which IF I do it will be twice as hard...

Kawen?
Lambat lg...


Kids at school?
Still love them,gonna miss them but sure in another 10 years they surely wont remember me hahaha...

Things at home?
MOVING in another two weeks...
Off to Tanjung Malim...
*urgh,hate moving*

Feelings inside?
Still healing...

Oh,I forgot....
Pre-reunion was the BEST!!!
Love u guys so much...
~lizi~
~hang~
~rin~
~fza~
~naimah~
~dayah~
~intan~
*penyebok named esyam aka johan,ur not that bad,thanks for keeping up with my rude behavior towards u (trying to push him away,thats why,hahaha)*

Overall,I'm doing just fine...
(^_^)

I'm In LOVE!!!!

I'm in LOVE....
I'm falling so in LOVE...
I'm falling for Aiman...
I'm falling for Ariff...
These two cute kids are from my class...
I dont have their pics yet and i hope i can take their pics soon...
I dont know why I have a soft spot for these two kids...
Maybe it's because they "stalk" me and today they got sent to the headmasters office coz ponteng class...
Darjah 2 dah pndai ponteng...
But they skip class just to come and see me teach my Standard 1 kids...
And when recess time, they come to the bilik guru and ngendap2 me there too...
Where ever I go, there they will be...

Nak cte how this happened panjang sangat...
Just enough expressing myself here that I'm gonna be very sad leaving the school in another one month +...
Aiman also told me to stay and dont go...
He said to come and see them once in a while when I leave...
Sangat terharu....
I'm really gonna miss them...
Especially my 2 Sejahtera students...
Really, really, really gonna miss them...

~ am i taking things too personally? ~
~ i cant help it, i just love kids ~

Pengorbanan?

jeles
dengki
dengki
jeles

nk ikot kwn g perlis

tp kje pada hari jmaat dan sabtu

sabtu kje sbb skolah nk gnti cuti raya nnti

perlis ~ taklimat + ronggeng bersama kwn2 tercinta

taklimat ~ mcm nak tp kne tgk dpt kje atau x

ronggeng ~ sangat dan teramat la nak

kwn2 ~ sangat, teramat dan really miss them a lot

*sigh*

Bosan....

A certain feeling comes over me,
Whenever someone tells me they like me,
A certain feeling fills the very heart of me,
Whenever I hear them pouring over me,

Hatred, pain, fear, disgust,
Even to the ones I trust,

Is it because of what I went thru?
I guess that is also a bit true,
Whenever I think abt the past,
I wish I could take it back,

But things happen for a reason,
And this made me stronger,
I learned never to trust another,
Just to protect my heart from some other,

Living in the past
You may think I am,
But I'm looking to the future,
Just to be a better man....

~~~~
Setiap apa yg terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya...
If one thing doesnt work out for me, I wont give up and i wont be mad...
Coz I know down the road, He has a better plan...
Dan aku akan terus melangkah utk mencari diri ini...
Dan aku akan terus bergerak utk mencari keredhaan Tuhanku yg Maha Mengampuni...
KepadaNya sahaja aku berserah setelah berusaha bersusah payah...
Dan syukur alhamdulillah kehadrat Ilahi kerna aku amat bahgia di saat ini...

Tribute....

Yes, this is one of my classes that I teach...
Class 1 Cemerlang...
Nak Cte abt all of them mmg tak kan dapat la, this blog will be too long...
So i'll just talk about a few of them :)
Sbnrnye nk boh lg gmbr budak2 class nie but myb some other time...
Sangat busy la skrg nie...
Nie sj curik time to do this padahal banyak lg kje aku tak wt lg nih...

Inilah dia (pic atas skali), Mohd Ariff (kiri) dan Mohd Nazmi (kanan)...
Aku amat syg pada dua budak ini...
Mmg amat nakal tapi sgt dengar cakap guru mereka...

Si Ariff tidak pndai membaca dan maseh blm dpt tulis ABC dgn btl, G terbalik la, B terbalik la...
Masa ngajar marah la tp bila ingat balik nk tergelak pun ada, kesian pun ada...
Mana tak kesian, budak2 yang lain dh leh at least can read and recognize a few words (in english coz i teach english) tp dia maseh terpinga2...
Tp oleh krn berkat kesabaran aku, aku nampak dia leh terima cara ajaran aku...
Dengar guru2 yang lain bercerita, dia mmg tak nak belajar and kalau tekan skit dia akn nangis...
Dengan aku takde la pulak, kje dok main, gelak, jalan sana sini dan membuat muka slumber badaknye bila aku marah....
Muka slumber badak dia la yg aku geram sgt tgk, ya Allah, mmg comel sgt, cm nak ganyang pun ada, hehehe...

Ha, itu baru cte psl Ariff, blm lg cte psl Nazmi...
Tadi, masa aku dok suh diorg wt kje, Si Nazmi nie leh menari2 smbil wt kje...
Nyanyi lagu 'Ketahuan' lak tu, hahaha...
Lps tu senyum dia, pergggghhhh, teramat la manis...
Setiap kali aku pndang dia, dia msti senyum...
Adoi, naseb kecik, kalau tak aku wt dh jadi pakwe, hahahaha...
mau je aku bawak balik dua ekor budak nie buat adik...
~anak xleh ok, aku maseh muda, blm layak menjadi seorang ibu hahahaha~
And budak Nazmi nie mmg la baik...
Pape mesti tanye aku dlu...
Sebenarnye, semua budak cmtu tp Nazmi nie cara dia lain skit...
Kalau class bising, dia akn cakap, "hampa nie suma bising la, senyap la teacher nk ajaq"...
Lepas tu muka dia masa tumpu perhatian, wah, mcm aku sorg je dalam class tu hahaha...
Rasa cm org bercinta lak, hehehe...

The feeling of teaching mmg amat best...
I never thought teaching can give me a great feeling of satisfaction...
Myb it runs in the family...
My dad's a teacher, my mom's a teacher...
My dad once told me he loved teaching, it's his passion...
At first I never did understand but i guess now I do...
My dad once was a PR for UMW Holdings Berhad but he quit coz wanted to be a teacher and after that continued his studies and finally being what he is now, a lecturer...
And I AM SO PROUD having a dad like him...
Mak, Nurul bangga jadi anak mak gak ;p
Sayang sgt sama kedua org tua ku itu...
Kalau mereka takde, I wouldnt be where I am and what I am now...
Love u mom, love u dad, you guys are the best parents in the WORLD!!!

Writings On The Wall...

Scared as a girl can be,
A girl who is lost in time,
Afraid of the future,
Of what holds beyond time.

"Will my life be ok?",
She knows it will be,
However she still wonders,
What will it be.

"Should I just wait?,
Or should I keep trying?",
Two questions that just keep on reminding.

Kalau tak berusaha,
takkan datang bergolek,
Or should she just wait,
and see whats in stake.

She is trying to meet other people,
Trying as hard as can be,
But how is it when her heart is liking someone else?
Could she ever like someone else instead of he?

Moving forward,
Never looking back,
Not waiting,
A second can never be taken back..

Moving on u see,
Is not as easy for me,
But I do fell liberated,
Liberated as can be.

Kisah Di Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Minyak...

Bnde baru yg aku telah belajar...
JANGAN BAGI MUKA KAT BUDAK2 KECIK!!!

Al-kisahnye....
Aku sedang "red light"...
And as usual, bila red light, mula la perut aku wt hal...

Aku yg baru 3 minggu menjadi guru sandaran tidak bertauliah mmg sgt disukai oleh anak muridku...
Mana xnye, nmpak je muka aku nk masuk cls "yeay, cikgu nurul masuk"...
TAPI, bila aku masuk, MAIN!!!

Ye, myb i'm not that garang tp bila aku marah pun budak2 tu boleh wt dunno...
X cukup garang gamaknye...
How to be garang dgn budak2 sume tu, diorg sgt la comel...
Xsampai hati nk marah lebih2, anak orang lak tu...

Ok, smbung cte td...
Perut aku wt hal...
Aku mntk tlg budak2 bg kerjasama la kn, aku ckp "cikgu sakit perut"...
Yang sgt bersyukur tu, masa tu smbut Maulud Nabi so they have pertandingan mewarna...
Aku just suh diorg color senyap2 and jgn wt bising...
Tu pun xleh...

Aku senyap *muka tahan sakit perut sebenarnye + geram*....
Ada a few kids prasan and tnye "cikgu dah xlarat ke?"....
Comelnye dua budak yg tnye soklan tu...
Dua budak tu leh kategori murid yg nakal...
Tp pertanyaan mereka tdak ku endah...
Wpun cmtu, ada gak kids yg xpeduli tgk muka cikgu yg tahan sakit dan sedang marah...

Last skali bila dh bising sgt and aku tegur pun diorg x endah.......................
Aku mengamok la *salahkan mood swing periodku*...
Tu pun ada gak yg xkesah...
Boleh lagi sorg budak nie (pmpn) nk sembang2 dgn aku...
Aku suh la dia diam, dh la budak tu amat degil dlm cls, langsung muka cuak...
Aku baik pijak kepala aku, ckp aku xmo dgr...
Padan muka ko...

Tp, yg aku heran, bila aku mengamok, aku satu budak pmpn tu boleh lak menjawab and melawan ckp aku...
Padahal dia xde la masalah sgt dlm cls...
Aku ckp sepatah, dia melawan 10 patah...
Mau je aku hempok, kurang ajar betul padahal baru drjah satu...

Yang budak2 nakal pndai la pulak senyap, takut aku marah...
Yang kira ok pulak yg menjawab and melawan...
Aduh, aku xtau la apa nk jadi...
Budak2 zaman skrg dh lain...
Membuatkan aku rasa tua...

Moral of my story to myself is ~ NEVER masuk cls dan tunjuk baik dgn budak2, kepala kita dipijak2... Baik kita garang dlu, bg diorg takut/respect kita baru berbaik2 dgn diorg...