3 Days To GO...

I can't wait to go to Penang this Thursday!

Because mainly I get to see my loved ones!

Hang Nur, Rina, Aya, Lizi and Yani!!! Tak sabar nak jumpa korang!!!

Fza lak can't come, I dunno why. Maybe she'll call me soon to tell my why. She'd better have a good reason too :p

And not forgetting my Superman! I'm looking forward seeing you Superman. I last met you last month, 27th November 2010. It's been a month already. One month of missing you terribly. I know I'm not trying to make myself like you coz I know I do like you the way I know I miss you and probably the way I know I love you.

*I'm falling deeply*

Mind vs. Heart

Going thru my blog, I've noticed that this year I wrote a lot. Almost half more then what I wrote last year. Is it good? I dunno. Maybe yes, maybe no. But gong thru it I've noticed how much I went thru. Things I hate, I regret to all the joy and happiness of my life.

So, what am I gonna write about today? Matters of the heart as usual. Like there is nothing else to talk about. I'd write about my family but it's too complicated. Too private. But I do love them till death. Even now my father is lecturing my brother about a business he wants to start up. I would also lecture him if he was asking for my money. OK, forget about that lol. Let me go to a new paragraph...

OK, I've been in love before. Once. Which was with my 1st ex. So now, I know how it feels. But the thing is, now I can't differentiate this love feeling with like or just a crush coz what happened to me happened so long ago. I just wanna know if what I feel now is really love or is it just another crush. I don't wanna make the same mistakes again. This time I want to make things work out. I don't wanna hurt and I don't wanna hurt anybody anymore.

A friend told me my mind is arguing with my heart which I say is true. Out of nowhere I almost said 'I love you' to the guy. I myself was surprised. And from that day on, I really wanted to say it to him. I feel that I do love him but my mind is telling me that maybe its not love. My mind keeps on telling me to be careful not to hurt anybody anymore. And my mind keeps on telling me to really make sure of what I'm feeling. I'm seriously confused.

Is it love?
He makes me happy. Check.
He makes me smile when I think of him. Check.
When I'm around him, I get nervous. Check.
I wait for his text and calls daily. Check.
I worry if I don't hear any news from him. Check.
He's constantly on my mind. Check.
I daydream about being with him. Check.
I miss him dearly. Check.

Are all the above points that I'm in love? Or is it just a phase where one day these feelings fade away? But I do like him a lot. I tell ya, A LOT. And I do miss him now....

Sweet Like Honey...

Sayang!

Pumpkin!

Honey Bee!

Sweet kan nama2 diatas given by my Superman! Suka! ^_^

^_^

OK, maybe my love life doesn't suck after all ^_^

Once Upon A Time...

My love life will always suck.

The End.

This Is Gonna Be One Long Month...

In less than 2 weeks I'm off to Shah Alam. The excitement has dropped maybe because I won't be at home anymore. Even I am not fond of Tanjong Malim but my family is here and I'm sure gonna miss them even though my sisters are annoying like hell. Another reason is the new environment thing. New environment, new people, new place, new stuff to learn. OK, fine, I'll consider it as a challenge in my life and this is what I wanted right? I think...

So what's so 'long' about this month? Waiting. Yup. Waiting... But it's what I want... I think...

And new years resolution?

Make next year better then this year without making the same stupid mistakes anymore...

Details? More or less like Lizi Ahmad's but with a few adjustments lol...

BTW, I need to get my head on straight. Hang Nur! Fza! Lizi! Suriah! Rina! Yani! and kwn2 lain, pls take me out utk berkaraoke!

Buh Lah

OK, aku angau!