2011!

Boleh tak tak perasan langsung that my last post was the 1st post for the year 2011?! Kalut sangat nak update blog sampai tak prasan langsung. Teruk betul....

So, Happy New Years! 26 days late but better late than never right?... BTW, it's my brothers birthday today! Happy 28th Birthday Amir!!! Aku tunggu Sushi King nie hahahaha... And you are old man...

Last year I mentioned about my new years resolution yang more or less the same as Lizi's which is blaja masak (enhance my cooking skills), menjadi seorang pelajar yang cemerlang dan rajin when dah sambung masters (dah sambung but I still feel lazy as ever), exercise to be more healthy and slim melim (sikit pun belum berjalan lagi), learn new stuff and try to be a better person compared to last year (working on it), and find someone to spend the rest of my life with (dimana dah jumpa which changes this resolution to getting engaged lol)...

So, welcome 2011 and goodbye 2010!

4 weeks Update...

Wah, dekat sebulan x update blog! Been busy lately or more like i have no internet access! OK, here goes what happened these few weeks....

After my last post, I went to Penang and I had a great time with my friends. Well, sampai-sampai je Penang dah jumpa orang tersayang which already made me happy and got to hang out with my friends which made me happier and I got a bracelet and 2 shirts which made me more happier and the best thing was on the 1st of January, I am officially not single which menjatuhkan saham sendiri but still, I am the happiest and luckiest person ever in the world ^_^

Going back to Tanjong Malim was not fun. I was happy due to orang tersayang hantar but parting is the thing that I hate most. But we parted and he got to meet my mom and dad and me and my family terus shoot to Shah Alam where I am staying now studying my masters degree in mass communication.

1st week was like hell! I cried! But eventually, everything now is going out great! I have great classmates which are great friends and I like them a lot. Oh, and there are so many pretty women in my class! Cuci mata tengok perempuan lawa every day yang ada class lol. And there is only one guy in my class and a very good class rep. Can depend on him not like other guys that I knew while studying my degree in Arau.

My classes are all in the morning but what happened this morning is that our classes will be changed in the evening! Urgh! I hate evening to night classes. I can't text my honey bunch and nak gayut pun susah. But lets see what happens on Thursday. Our class is gonna try and fix things so that we can have our usual time classes. Oh, and I got to be an RA! I wont have to ask for money from my parents anymore ^_^

Another event I'm looking forward on is 'Meeting the Parents'! Nope, not 'Meet the Fockers' but 'Meet the Ainuddins' hehehe... I hope his parents will like me. I got my fingers crossed... I'm seriously excitedly scared... But I'm gonna go thru this because I actually love this guy and am looking forward to have a future with him... So guys, wish me luck!...

*btw,his name is azlan ainuddin,sj gedik nk tulis nama dia kt sini hehe*

3 Days To GO...

I can't wait to go to Penang this Thursday!

Because mainly I get to see my loved ones!

Hang Nur, Rina, Aya, Lizi and Yani!!! Tak sabar nak jumpa korang!!!

Fza lak can't come, I dunno why. Maybe she'll call me soon to tell my why. She'd better have a good reason too :p

And not forgetting my Superman! I'm looking forward seeing you Superman. I last met you last month, 27th November 2010. It's been a month already. One month of missing you terribly. I know I'm not trying to make myself like you coz I know I do like you the way I know I miss you and probably the way I know I love you.

*I'm falling deeply*

Mind vs. Heart

Going thru my blog, I've noticed that this year I wrote a lot. Almost half more then what I wrote last year. Is it good? I dunno. Maybe yes, maybe no. But gong thru it I've noticed how much I went thru. Things I hate, I regret to all the joy and happiness of my life.

So, what am I gonna write about today? Matters of the heart as usual. Like there is nothing else to talk about. I'd write about my family but it's too complicated. Too private. But I do love them till death. Even now my father is lecturing my brother about a business he wants to start up. I would also lecture him if he was asking for my money. OK, forget about that lol. Let me go to a new paragraph...

OK, I've been in love before. Once. Which was with my 1st ex. So now, I know how it feels. But the thing is, now I can't differentiate this love feeling with like or just a crush coz what happened to me happened so long ago. I just wanna know if what I feel now is really love or is it just another crush. I don't wanna make the same mistakes again. This time I want to make things work out. I don't wanna hurt and I don't wanna hurt anybody anymore.

A friend told me my mind is arguing with my heart which I say is true. Out of nowhere I almost said 'I love you' to the guy. I myself was surprised. And from that day on, I really wanted to say it to him. I feel that I do love him but my mind is telling me that maybe its not love. My mind keeps on telling me to be careful not to hurt anybody anymore. And my mind keeps on telling me to really make sure of what I'm feeling. I'm seriously confused.

Is it love?
He makes me happy. Check.
He makes me smile when I think of him. Check.
When I'm around him, I get nervous. Check.
I wait for his text and calls daily. Check.
I worry if I don't hear any news from him. Check.
He's constantly on my mind. Check.
I daydream about being with him. Check.
I miss him dearly. Check.

Are all the above points that I'm in love? Or is it just a phase where one day these feelings fade away? But I do like him a lot. I tell ya, A LOT. And I do miss him now....

Sweet Like Honey...

Sayang!

Pumpkin!

Honey Bee!

Sweet kan nama2 diatas given by my Superman! Suka! ^_^

^_^

OK, maybe my love life doesn't suck after all ^_^

Once Upon A Time...

My love life will always suck.

The End.