Moving On...

At last,i threw away all those stuff that reminded me of him...
Gambar, tiket, ring, kad matrik, kertas yg ditulis "i love u" dlm kod, penutup roti which stated my birthday on it, a couple of guitar picks and a few other stuff....
Just one thing i can't manage to throw away; the teddy bear...
Syok la peluk menatang tu bila tido hahaha..,
Bukan sayang sbb dia bagi or what,its just a good bantal peluk,hehe....

Memula masa bawak kuar barang2 tu from my wallet simpanan, teringat jugak la what i have done, what he had done...
Nostalgia and memories la konon....
I looked thru each and every piece of paper, picture, and the other stuff one by one...
It took me about an hour (or more) to get rid of those stuff....
Padahal bukan bnyk pun...
About the feeling i got when i went thru those stuff; no words could describe what i felt...
I wasn't sad nor happy, it wasn't the feeling of nothingness... i think it was the feeling of moving on...

Once done with the not-so-much reminiscing, i went to the kitchen....
I tore everything, kecuali bnde yang xleh dikoyak lah....
Starting with the paper writing "i love u" in codes, two of his pictures, kad matrik, the tickets, the bread sealer and so on...
Nothing.... that's how and what i felt during the activity of tearing up all those good for nothing memories that only made my heart ache...
Now, everything is in the tong sampah where this morning the lori sampah dh kutip segala bnde yg tak guna itu,hahaha...
And i'm feeling GREAT!!! =D

Now, my goal is searching for a better future...
I hope i can get thru this DPLI that i applied for, nak jadi cikgu la konon...
But based on my family background, my dad's a lecturer and my mom's a teacher...
Both of the are educators, both of them are my hero's, and both of them are the people whom i love very much...
Kira, i want to be like them....

Love life?
Not thinking of that right now...
Semuanya akan ku serah padaNya...
I just hope i am strong enough to go thru His tests...

Well, done for now...
Lastly i just wanna say thanks to Him for everything that has happened...
Aku harap aku dapat kekalkan keadaan aku yang macam nie....
Yang lebih bersyukur dan lebih mengingat Dia dan mengharap keredhaanNya di tiap ketika....
~Amin~