Penghijrahan Ke Tempat Baru! Eh, Lama! Eh?!

Assalamualaikum,

Hello,

Seven months have gone by. Bukan busy uruskan anak pun sebab hantar anak mak jaga. Busy cari duit dengan kerja freelancing. Kerja bagai nak rak tapi gaji freelancing tak cukup lah sebenarnya. Tapi alhamdulillah sekurang-kurangnya ada rezeki disitu.

Anak pulak, dah 10 bulan. Cepat je rasa. Lagi 2 minggu lebih nanti dia 11 bulan. Milestone dia? Tak catat pun. Yang pasti, dia tak pandai merangkak, pandai mengesot je. Kesian tengok dia mengesot macam amak dugong hahaha. Tapi comel. Ajar dia berjalan, berlagak taknak orang pegang. Dia boleh berjalan agak jauh jugak tanpa dipegang kalau dia ralit. Lepas bila sedar dia jadi kurang confident and terus menjatuhkan diri hahaha. Pandai tepuk amai-amai, bye-bye, cakap atok tapi pelat-pelat. Mulut memang banyak. Suka marah orang. Suka tarik rambut orang. Suka main kejar-kejar. Suka hindustan and upin ipin. Suka menari goyang-goyang bontot. Bila orang berzikir, dia pun ikut sekali walaupun ntah apa-apa dia sebut.

Aku pulak? Dah berpindah Tanjong Malim secara officially pada bulan ini. Because?! Dapat kerja di UPSI. Alhamdulillah rezeki anak kedua. Eh? Anak kedua? Yup, I am 9 weeks pregnant! Perasaan mengandung anak kedua? Bercampur baur. Why? Because:

"Dah la hantar Hasya kat mak, lepas tu baru je rasa nak manja-manja

dengan Hasya, ada pulak baby baru, kesian Hasya"

"Aku deliver via cesarean section, tak sampai setahun dah mengandung, bahayanya"

Tapi macam mana pun alhamdulillah dengan rezeki yang tak disangka-sangka nie. Allah beri aku rezeki nie sebab Dia tau aku, suami aku, Hasya and also my parents and siblings can handle it. Dan alhamdulillah juga aku kerja duduk dengan mak. Mak and also my brother and sisters boleh tolong tengok-tengokkan Hasya bila aku kepenatan. 

So now my main priority is give Hasya all the love and attention I can sebelum baby baru keluar. Once baby keluar, because I plan on breastfeeding this time around, Azlan Ainuddin lah kena pay more attention to our little princess while I pay attention to the little one in my tummy. Moga-moga Hasya boleh jadi kakak yang baik dan bertanggungjawab.

Dah lah, time to buat kerja. Curi masa type blog while I can. Rupanya kerja ofis lagi ada masa free banding kerja freelancing+housewife. Salute to all mothers and housewives out there. Salute lagi ibu-ibu tungal di luar sana. You guys are the real women of steel. 

Lots of love,

Nurul

The Story of Giving Birth + Update Situ Sini

Hello Blog,

5 bulan I left you alone. Kesian. My baby is now almost 4 months. I delivered 8 days late. C-section.

Ok, I'll start from the beginning.

Went back home to Tanjung Malim early October, 6 October to be exact. All I did was eat, sleep. Parents were taking extra care of me. Felt like a princess LOL. Was waiting to feel any contractions or anything showing that the baby is ready to see the world but nada.

My birthday passed, so long to having the same birthday date as my daughter and her due date passed which made me feel sooooo annoyed coz I just wanted to get the baby out. Day after day I waited until the clinic gave me a letter if little baby still ain't out by the 10th day passed her due date, Imma be induced. On the 5th day post-date, baby was moving very less, next day went to the hospital to check and baby was fine. Thank God!

And a couple days later, her comes the contractions. 4 minutes apart. It didn't feel bad at all. Just the tummy tightening. Next day, went to the hospital again, they put me on a CTG scan thingy to check my babys heartbeat and stuff. It was not looking good so the nurse said the doc said if the babys heart rate stayed that way, I'm off to the surgery room. But it improved A BIT so you know gov doctors, they prefer natural birth and I want natural birth too. A VE was also done one me. The best thing, tip of finger was the opening. TIP OF FINGER?!!!! So I was allowed to go home but the doc and nurse said I can stay if I want.

So I said I'll stay just in case anything happened so I won't have to ask anybody to send me to the hospital again. Kebetulan that day was awwal muharram punya cuti so the visiting hours were until 7pm kalau tak salah la. So my parents came and went back home early. Tinggal me husband lah teman me. He went back and I went to the toilet and viola! Blood! And then the hurting began!!!

Even when I was contracting the nurses said I had high contractions. When blood came out, the pain started to rise. Tak boleh tahan, couldn't sleep at all! I asked for a VE coz it tak tahan. Bukaan, 1cm! I think that was about 1am. In 12 hours, 1cm je?! Sakit tuhan je tau. Cannot sleep. Than at 3am, they put me on a CTG scan again and did another VE. 3cm! And then they told me to get ready around 6am coz the doc is gonna pop my water.

Showered around 530am, got pushed to the labor room. The doc came and popped my water. The said once they do this I'll probably open more quickly. Banyak cantek muka depa la kan. What I remember was the pain got stronger, seriously I ask them for pain killers and epidural tapi tak mau kasi. Epidural tak dak k kat SLIM RIVER HOSPITAL. But seriously the pain. Finally they gave me pain killers. They said it will make me sleepy. So dapat la and memang tido pun tapi sakit. How to say ha? I was like separa sedar. When they gave me the pain killers I was 4cm dilated. I think that was around 1130am.

Lepas tu tak sedar diri, everything around me was blurry. The nurse said if I wanted to push, just push. Tu yang kepala anak keluar lonjong hahaha. Then I have no idea what time, a doc came and gave me papers to sign, I had no idea WTH was it for and I saw my husband talking to the doc. He also signed some papers. Then they put something in my tut tut, a peeing bag and took me to the operation room. Fetal distress. After 24hours, just 4cm dilated.

They cut me up, took my baby out, showed her tut tut to me first OK! Not her face hahaha. Kissed her, sewed me back up, and took me back to the ward. Did not see baby at all after that. Gained consciousness around 10pm, nurse helped me with everything. Was hearing a baby cry, didn't know it was mine LOL! A nurse was fedup, tak tau apa nak buat with my baby. Dengan kasarnya bagi baby to me. Senyap. The best thing, I dunno how to pegang baby! She just gave it to me tanpa ajar. Kira I pegang salah la and i think the head nurse asked kenapa pegang camtu, I said a nurse just abruptly gave the baby to me and I dunno how to pegang. So she showed me how to hold her and I think find the nurse who was responsible for not teaching me LMFAO. Serves her right.

I still remember how she looked at me the first time I held her in my arms. I still remember how she looked at me when she was lying beside me. That was the best feeling in the world. But everything was ruined when she got hungry hahaha.

Long story cut short, after another 2 days at the hospital, I went home.

Habissssss. But! A lot more things had happen. Like, kena admit balik, and dok hospital lagi lama dari beranak. Wanna know? Next post. Malaih nak taip dah.

Adios!

30 More Days...

Hello!

Assalamualaikum.

As mentioned in title above, I have 30 more days to go till my estimated due date. As I am typing this, I am approximately 35 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

What I can say, the difference I can feel this week compared to last week was the way the baby moves. Yup. She now roles more than kick up a storm and also she is stronger. If she moves in a certain way I can feel the pressure on my bladder and blv me, it ain't a pleasant feeling. More unpleasant is when she stays there and making me feel wanting to pee ASAP! My belly is getting heavier. My feet gets huge when it gets later in the day. Oh, my ribs don't really hurt like before maybe I think it is because that my belly already dropped atau bak kata org melayu, perut dh jatuh lah. I can eat a full meal now which is GREAT! But I still sleep sitting down propped with lotsa pillows and I think my belly is damn huge that getting in and out of bed is a hassel to me.

Ok, that is what I am exp now. But seriously, I just love feeling my baby move actively in my belly. There was a few days that she was very less active and it made me worried sick! After 2 days of being inactive, she suddenly came back to her normal moving pattern and surprisingly more stronger and different. Lotsa movement is better than less movement. So even if I wake up early and am in deep pain due to her kicking n rolling, I don't mind at all!

Apa lagi....

Oh, harap-harap that little cupcake here keluar before her due date,maybe by week 38? Coz me very tired la angkut dia. Perut very berat. Very very very berat.

Hmm....

Ok la kot stakat nie je lah. Mengantok sangat. Saja tahan mata make sure very ngantok so that I can sleep sitting down. Sebab tu la menaip blog thru hp nieeee....

Ok lah,nite peeps!

35th Week Checkup

Hola!

Assalamualaikum!

This week, dah masuk 35 weeks pregnant. Another 5 more weeks to go! Yeay! I hope that I will beranak earlier than expected. Bukan tak sabaq nak jadi mak tapi tak larat dah, berat aih perut nie tapi I know for sure that I'm gonna miss this little thing moving inside me.

So just came back from my checkup. My weight, 65kg! An increase of 1kg in 2 weeks and a total of 11.5kg increase! I've never felt so fat in my life! Fundal height, measuring an extra 1cm, which maybe means I still have a big baby. Baby's heart rate, normal. I know my baby is head down already, been like that since week 28 but finally I asked the nurse where is the baby's butt lol! The baby's been moving like crazy so I can't identify which part and what part is pushing my belly out. But now I know and can feel the difference hihihi.

Starting from now, I will have to do weekly checkups. My last checkup here will be next week and after that I'm off to me hometown continuing the checkup there. I can't believe that I just have 5 weeks left. I'm so scared and anxious at the same time.

I've been watching documentaries on child birth and reading a lot on this topic. The best I guess is One Born Every Minute. I just love that! I wish in Malaysia we could give birth like that. I'm not sure how they do it here tapi macam kena baring je. Like in the documentaries that I watch, we can be in any position that we are comfortable with. And I read and also learned in another documentary that vertical birth will make the mother deliver better compared to the lying down style. Seriously, The Business of Being Born, good one to watch. Here's the link (http://youtu.be/KvljyvU_ZGE). 

So that is one way for me to get prepared for delivery. I also read that just thinking positive and keeping cool during the process will also help. I hope I can do that. I'm just afraid that it'll hurt too much that I lose my cool and all my positiveness disappears lol. But I think I can do it. If I can I want a natural birth without epidurals or any pain relief meds.

I also have a few friends that are in the same boat! Liza is just waiting for her time to pop! I think she's 38 weeks this week. Rina is 31 weeks. Shikin Kamal I'm not sure, maybe a couple weeks later than I am. But basically, I can't wait to see all our babies! Since Liza is about to pop, I hope everything goes well for her, moga-moga dipermudahkan lah proses bersalin dia. Aamiin....

Apa lagi nak merepek ha?

No idea la pulop. Tadi ingat macam-macam nak tulih.

Takpe lah, till next time.

Adios!

A Little Something...

I still remember. I always loved babies, always wanted a little sister (been the youngest for 10 years) and always acted like a big sister to Beth (a kid that my mom babysat when we were living in the US). As I got older, I just loved looking at pregnant women. Wondering what and how did it feel like to have an actual human being living inside you. I always knew I wanted to have my own kids. I do also still remember when I was 18, I said to my friends the only reason why I want to get married is because I want a baby (it is taboo in my country having a baby without being married). However as the years passed by, I was unlucky in love. My goal was to be married by 25 but that did not happen. So giving up on marriage but still longing to feel the joy of pregnancy, I asked my mom the 'hukum' of getting pregnant by using a sperm donor. Surprisingly my mom did not object this thing on my mind but told me to research what was the 'hukum' in Islam and also reminded me that we are living in a society that this thing might bring slander. I was 26 I guess then. So when my mom said that, I was like, alright, fine.

Than surprisingly, this unlucky in love person got lucky and got married. And yes, in my mind, lets get pregnant ASAP! I was targeting of getting pregnant in 3 months. I didn't care that I was still in my last semester taking my masters coz if Allah gives the gift to me, there will be ways to support my baby.

Every month, if I were late, I'd do a pregnancy test. 1st month, 2nd month negative. 3rd month was too busy with class and work. Had an early miscarriage. I didn't do the pregnancy test though but I knew and husband knew I was pregnant, we just felt it. But I guess due to the stress and hectic life I was living, the baby did not stay.

The next months, I quit my job, concentrated on my thesis. Still every month I did pregnancy tests which all were negative even though I was late. I never thought it would be that hard just to have a baby. My family, both father and mother side never had a problem in getting pregnant. They were all pregnant in the first month of their marriage including my mom. The dissapointment after every negative test, I cannot describe. Heartbreaking.

I can't believe that only after 5 months I quit hoping. I just couldn't face another negative test. I just left this matter to god. Having faith that if He wants me to wait, then wait I will.

On the 6th month going on 7 I think, I was having cramps before my period. Actually it worried me coz I usually get cramps while having my period. It worried me also coz it happened after I miscarried. So this was the 2nd or 3rd period that I had after my miscarriage that hurt before my period. So, coz of that, I was worried and asked my husband to bring me to the clinic during the weekend.

Those few days were making me very nervous. I was afraid something was wrong. Can you blv that all your life you wanted something but maybe it could not happen? But I didn't think about it much. All I did was think positive.

The night before we went to the clinic, it was the week I'm supposed to get my period. I was still not late yet but I was thinking 'what the hell, just take another pregnancy test to tell the doc tomorrow your not pregnant.' At least the doc could prescribe me meds and not have me take a test.

Convinced I wasn't pregnant, I did the test quietly without husband knowing. All tests I did without him knowing actually lol. Didn't want him to feel disappointed too you know so better I feel it alone without showing him the pain every time I get a negative result. So, continue, I did the test that night. Wasn't waiting at all for a double line so after putting the strip in my pee, I went on doing other stuff. Around 5 minutes I think, I went to see the strip. Shockingly I saw a double line! But very faint. I had a double line before but that was because I left the strip outside too long. Thought i was preggos but I wasn't. But this time I just left it a little over 2 minutes so it can't be an error right?
In shock and disbelief, I texted my husband (he was fast asleep by then) that maybe he's gonna be a daddy.

The next morning, husband got up, went to the toilet and saw the test. He didn't look happy. I think maybe coz we were dissapointed a few times so we didn't want to get our hopes up too high. I told him that I want to buy another test just to be sure that it wasn't faulty. So instead of going to the clinic, we went to my aunts house coz she asked us to come over to eat and then went to buy the pregnancy test kit. Tested again, faint double line.
Thinking this time I AM pregnant, I just said to my husband, lets wait another week, faint lines does not convince me.
So we waited another week and yes, the line got darker.

Actually I was still in shock and couldn't beleive that I was pregnant! The month where you actually leave things to rest and not obses about, is when you finally get the greatest gift you always wanted. And after that, its history.

I am now 33 weeks pregnant, another 7 weeks till baby arrives. Yes, of course it already sinked in that I am pregnant with this huge belly and active baby! But it did take a while for it to sink in though lol.
Throughout this pregnancy, one thing I got to know, it ain't easy! I thought being pregnant will be a breeze but, it is way opposite. Just say I was in pain from before I knew I was pregnant (cramps that worried me early on) until now! Not a day passes by that I am not in pain. Now I am in more pain than before. But thinking that this was what I always wanted since god knows when, I'll face it with no compalints (I do complain, don't blv this statement) and with a positive mind (this is true but after every complaint lol).
Now it just has not sink in to me yet that I am gonna be a mom. I still behave like a kid at times. I hope that I can be a great mom, a great parent like how my parents are.

Another 46 days to be a mom. Wish me luck everyone.

p/s: wrote this a week ago,now have 39 days left..actually this is the first time imma post something using my phone so if the paragraph is looking crazy,maaf ye hihi...

32 weeks...

Hello y'all!

Assalamualaikum.....

Apa nak tulih tak tau kali nie. Merepek meraban je kerja. Hmm...

I think pasal pregnancy la kot. Sejak ngandung tu je la update yang boleh update pun. Nak cakap pasal bercinta, dah kawen. Nak cakap pasal preparation kawen, dah kawen. Nak cakap lovey dovey pasal suami, nanti orang muntah. Tapi nak jugak la cakap pasal suami, tengok ramai mana yang muntah hahahaha.

Ok, first of all, pregnancy progress. This week, 32 weeks. Last week pergi checkup, my baby is bigger than she's supposed to be. Big baby, small mommy. Meaning mommy is being in more pain than usual. Previously in pain 24/7 but pain still bearable, now, pain also 24/7 but getting more and more unbearable. Kadang-kadang macam nak nangis je. Malam-malam bila takleh tido, which has occured to me these past 3 days, memang dah nangis sikit sebab sedih sangat. Mengantok tapi tido terlentang sakit, tido mengiring kiri and kanan sakit, tido duduk sakit pinggang, tambah pulak demam n sakit tekak, oh my, tak tau macam mana nak tahan another 50+ days. Tapi Allah takkan bagi ujian yang hambaNya cannot endure kan? So this painful feeling that I am taking in every single day masih boleh ku tahan. Just hope it doesn't get worse.

Lepas tu perancangan nak beranak memula nak beranak dekat HUKM but due to my husband ter'terpengaruh dengan kawan dia yang hantar isterinya balik kampung before beranak, he wants to do the same thing. Katanya takut nobody at home to send me to the hospital if dia pergi kerja memandangkan we live on the highest floor, tingkat 4 and no elevator, maka dia agak risau. He also risau kalau nak terberanak time waktu orang balik kerja. From our house to HUKM amat la dekat but if waktu balik kerja, boleh jadi 2 jam baru sampai hospital. Terberanak la dalam kereta. Walaupun memang takkan and mutahil, but itu la katanya hahaha. Maka dengan kuasa veto suami, I will be sent to Tanjong Malim early of October. A month early from due date. Kesian laki aku sorang-sorang kat sini nanti. Tak sanggup nak tinggai pun ada. Haih.....

Barang-barang baby? Mostly pakai hat adik-adik punya hahaha. Baju-baju adik yang sekarang form 2 masih ada, mak simpan. So new born baby wear beli tak sampai 10 helai la, jimat! Barut semua ada dah. Erm... Botol susu dah beli, changing mat, nappy liners, lampin kain, bantal, towel, pun dah ada. Tinggal diapers je. Diapers pakai buang esok nak p beli. And barang mommynya lak, mesti la tak beli set bersalin lagi hahaha. Yang tu mintak mak mtua belikan so nanti by the end of this month, mak mtua nak turun KL she will bring the thing along. Dengar kata set Nona Roguy tapi maybe set Anugerah jugak. Dunno yet. Terima aje la apa pun. Tak reti pun bab-bab nie hehehe.

Barang-barang baby yang besar like stroller and car seat tu kemudian lah. Crib pun abah dah belikan. Semangat betul bapak aku beli barang bagai untuk cucu sulong dia hahaha. Mak la cakap abah eksaited secara over hihihi. Siap balik penang cari barang-barang untuk baby semua. Survey bagai. Aku nie ha takde pun survey-survey, malas! Ok, I admit I may not be like other mothers but I admit that I never liked shopping anyways. Penat kot. Suka lagi membina badan duduk kat kedai makan minum-minum and makan-makan hahaha. Baju sendiri pun dah lusuh baru nak beli baru. Tu pun sejak berkawen, suami yang beria-ia mengajak shopping and belikan. Harap sendiri? Memang takde maknanya. Tudung pun malas nak beli, dapat banyak pun sekarang ehsan dari mak mtua hahaha. Mak mtua banyak tudiung!!! Untung ai dapat tudiung freeeeee hihihi...

Apa lagi nak merepek nie?....

Harap-harap lepas beranak nie leh dapat kerja. I applied a lecturing job through JobsMalaysia, as a lecturer, harap dapat la panggilan. Now tengah tunggu TPM UiTM. I hope I can get that too coz at least I can be a full time student and full time housewife and full time mommy! I'm actually aiming for that. And MAYBE will apply a lecturing job at UPSI, under fakulti bahasa. Takkan nak freelance sampai sudah kan? Plus tak cukup kot income with my freelancing job. Need more to give the best for little baby. Hope I can be a good mom and wife at the same time.

OK, malas dah nak merepek. Patut translate kerja but gatai tulih belog. Boring new job nie, last job at least kartun yang best, nie discovery kids yang ntah pape. No wonder nak menulis blog hahaha.

Ok bye!

Resepi Nasi Daging...

Hello!

Assalamualaikum!

Post kali nie khas dituju untuk Rina Hamid. As usual resepi aku sesimple yang mungkin coz malas nak masak benda yang memenatkan badan di kala badan tengah berdua dan berganda. This resepi pun was taken from the Internet. Yes, thanks to the Internet cooking is made easy. Not only negative impacts occur with the vast use of the Internet, but para puan-puan like me yang tak pernah masak sebelum kawen dapat masak dengan sedapnya hohoho...

Ok, here are the ingredients:

Beras of course (ikut suka hati)
Daging (ikut suka hati)
Bawang merah*
Bawang putih*
Halia*
Minyak sapi
Butter/Margerin
Susu cair
Tomato puree (1 sudu cukup)
Sup bunjut Adabi (1sudu cukup)
Bunga lawang*
Kulit kayu manis*
Buah pelaga*
Serbuk kurma
Garam
Air

Langkah-langkah:
1. Hiris daging, rebus bersama sub bunjut and rempah kurma where air tu buat cukup-cukup je untuk masak nasi nanti, kalau belebih nanti buang.
2. Next, tumis semua bahan bertanda * dengan butter and minyak sapi tadi.
3. Bila layu, masukkan tomato puree tadi, takyah banyak-banyak kalau makan 2 orang, sparuh atau 1 sudu dah cukup.
4. Lepas kacau-kacau tomato puree tu, masukkan lak susu cair. Yang nie pun if makan 2 orang, no need banyak-banyak, kalau masak 2 pot nasi tu, letak dalam more or less separuh dari pot nasi tu.
5. Lepas tu masukkan la air rebusan daging tadi sekali dengan daging-daging dia tu. Like I said above, jangan main letak air, sukat yeee and perasakan dengan garam.
6. Dah tuang air rebusan daging tu, tuang je dalam periuk nasi yang dah ada beras yang korang basuh dan toskan.
7. Done!

Ok, nasi daging nie sedap makan dengan air asam. Boleh jugak kuah dalca. Air asam nie nak bagi resepi jugak ke? Tak perlu kot hahaha. If nak please do comment and tell me ya Rina Hamid!

-xoxo-